Time to compose a blog entry. Yehey!
I dont know why i can't post a new blogpost using the computer. So i'm trying to post using my phone. :) I hope it'll work.
So, unlike my previous blog entry, i feel better today. All my stress were washed away after i messaged my father and got the rare chance to see my college bestfriends, ate Rashmi and Lady Rose. And ofcourse, last but not the least, Our basketball team Gilas Pilipinas made it to the Finals of FIBA Asia. Wuuuu! The game was exciting. It's not predictable since at the start of the fourth quarter, it became a seasaw game against the Korea. :)
Anyway, I realized, its true that never compare others chapter 20 to your chapter1. I agree. *sigh* (emo mode turn on) If only i had the self confidence, which i don't really have no matter how i try, i wouldn't be stressed everytime i would go to work. Damn that photocopy machine. That machine ruined my whole week. I don't know why. It's just, what the hell, i didnt do anythng, it just went crazy all of the sudden. Almost half a ream of bondpaper were... wasted. And basically speaking, its all my fault. Although deep down to myself, i really, didnt do anything para ma-recopy yun ng madaming beses. How frustating.
I almost cried that day, thinking at the middle of the busy station of MRT, about what on earth was my purpose in life? Why is it so hard to live with other people? Why i always fail, feel like the dumbest person in the planet? Why do I have to feel so down, that i hate myself so much? Sometimes, i feel that I'm not afraid to die anytime, im just afraid it would hurt. Because i don't think i have a purpose in life. Yes, I have many dreams. But what will i get when i reach my dream? When i think of my mother and our dreams, i would just cry silently. My mother won't be here anyway. No matter how i want to hug her, i couldn't. No matter how many times i would utter the word "sorry", she won't come back... One of the reason why i'm lonely because i missed her whenever i feel so low. less than three months na lang, one year death anniv na Mama. Sometimes, life is just so hard.. Hard to let go. Even though the memories were painful, its hard to erased it on my mind.
That's what i felt yesterday. But God really is good. He gave me a looong break to recover about how i felt this week. Holiday plus weekends. Time to think peaceful thoughts and have great time with friends, aunt and brother.
Maganda pa rin 'yong marami kang napapagsabihan para mailabas ang frustration. Stress absorber ba. You are one of my stress absorber, my blog. Now i know what is my purpose in life-- to continue searching... For real hapiness and lovelife. Kailan kaya ako magkaka-love life? Sabay ganun. Hehe!
Gilas Pilipinas. Laban at Puso. Thats what i'm talking about! I'm proud to be a Filipino.
Pingris, Ocampo, Alapag, Fonacier, Castro, Chan, David, etc., great job! Panalo ang steal ni pingris and three point shots by Alapag in the last quarter. All the hardwork worth it! Way to go #spain2014 ! Finals bukas with Iran, kahit surebol na, galingan niyo pa dn, mga men. ^_^
Babala, ang entry na ito ay masyadong emosyonal. Masaya at malungkot. Bipolar lang. LOL
Oops, sorry. Too late to say that.
Till next time. Goodnight!
I dont know why i can't post a new blogpost using the computer. So i'm trying to post using my phone. :) I hope it'll work.
So, unlike my previous blog entry, i feel better today. All my stress were washed away after i messaged my father and got the rare chance to see my college bestfriends, ate Rashmi and Lady Rose. And ofcourse, last but not the least, Our basketball team Gilas Pilipinas made it to the Finals of FIBA Asia. Wuuuu! The game was exciting. It's not predictable since at the start of the fourth quarter, it became a seasaw game against the Korea. :)
Anyway, I realized, its true that never compare others chapter 20 to your chapter1. I agree. *sigh* (emo mode turn on) If only i had the self confidence, which i don't really have no matter how i try, i wouldn't be stressed everytime i would go to work. Damn that photocopy machine. That machine ruined my whole week. I don't know why. It's just, what the hell, i didnt do anythng, it just went crazy all of the sudden. Almost half a ream of bondpaper were... wasted. And basically speaking, its all my fault. Although deep down to myself, i really, didnt do anything para ma-recopy yun ng madaming beses. How frustating.
I almost cried that day, thinking at the middle of the busy station of MRT, about what on earth was my purpose in life? Why is it so hard to live with other people? Why i always fail, feel like the dumbest person in the planet? Why do I have to feel so down, that i hate myself so much? Sometimes, i feel that I'm not afraid to die anytime, im just afraid it would hurt. Because i don't think i have a purpose in life. Yes, I have many dreams. But what will i get when i reach my dream? When i think of my mother and our dreams, i would just cry silently. My mother won't be here anyway. No matter how i want to hug her, i couldn't. No matter how many times i would utter the word "sorry", she won't come back... One of the reason why i'm lonely because i missed her whenever i feel so low. less than three months na lang, one year death anniv na Mama. Sometimes, life is just so hard.. Hard to let go. Even though the memories were painful, its hard to erased it on my mind.
That's what i felt yesterday. But God really is good. He gave me a looong break to recover about how i felt this week. Holiday plus weekends. Time to think peaceful thoughts and have great time with friends, aunt and brother.
Maganda pa rin 'yong marami kang napapagsabihan para mailabas ang frustration. Stress absorber ba. You are one of my stress absorber, my blog. Now i know what is my purpose in life-- to continue searching... For real hapiness and lovelife. Kailan kaya ako magkaka-love life? Sabay ganun. Hehe!
Gilas Pilipinas. Laban at Puso. Thats what i'm talking about! I'm proud to be a Filipino.
Pingris, Ocampo, Alapag, Fonacier, Castro, Chan, David, etc., great job! Panalo ang steal ni pingris and three point shots by Alapag in the last quarter. All the hardwork worth it! Way to go #spain2014 ! Finals bukas with Iran, kahit surebol na, galingan niyo pa dn, mga men. ^_^
Babala, ang entry na ito ay masyadong emosyonal. Masaya at malungkot. Bipolar lang. LOL
Oops, sorry. Too late to say that.
Till next time. Goodnight!
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