DO NOT DELETE :)

Hay naku... I actually made a looooooooooooooong post about what happened to me this past few days but it was gone all of a sudden. I thought it was posted two times so i deleted the recent one not knowing that that was the complete post. On the other hand, the remaining post did not appeared since it was just a draft lang pala. WAAAAA!

LOL epic failed. but anyway, let me summarized it. I remember that i was talking about our Quality of Worklife Seminar in Makiling Highlands. It was one of my memorable experience since i got to know myself more. I was suddenly enlightened about my personality. I am an Introvert Phlegmatic person. (tama ba ang spelling? LOL) So... I really wish people could understand me. But i am trying hard to speak with people...

Sinabi ko rin sa post ko na simula ng seminar namin, inspired na akong pumasok everyday. And ofcourse, i have my own inspiration :) It all started when he caught my attention the moment when he smiled at me one busy morning in the MRT. Since then, everytime we bump to each other he would always smile at me. Ako lang itong si nahihiyang tignan siya sa mga mata. LOL :') Everyday, iniisip ko na sana magkaroon naman kami ng mahaba-habang moment because i didn't still know his name though. What an epic fail. Sana malaman ko na iyon ngayong week. HAHAHAHA

signing off, Engr. R.Reyes.

Envy

I am fucking tired (sorry for the word) of comparing myself to others. Why are they this, why are they that. Do i have this, do i have that. Damn it, Rhoma. Do you ever learn? Do you? Do you? Do you?
You like stressing urself too much huh. Yeah, that's right. You would die early.

One of seven deadly sins. Envy. I admit i envied others. There are many petty, small reasons why. I know that its wrong. And i decided to change. But still, there are times that i find myself asking questions "why can't i be like that?".

I have to realize, that this is fucking life. Live with it and be happy what you have. So be it.

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Random Thoughts

I can relate to the heroine's feelings of the novel I'm reading right now. The effect of reading a romance novel. I wonder when will I experience such feeling. Ah, damn the hopeless romantic side of me.

I'm looking for inspiration to write. Be it a person, a book or even an experience. Now I'm being straight forward in here. Some little voice was starting to nag me, which says "Go out in your comfort zone, swallow your pride and go meet some people!"

Knowing me, I'm always interested to all of the people i get the chance to talk to, its just i dont have the guts to ask them personal questions. I'm just waiting for them to ask, and eventually i find my self waiting to find white feathers from a crow. Don't do others what they dont do unto you maybe they don't want to be asked too, right? So i wont ask.

I want to meet a guy who is exact opposite of me. I'm such a boring and monotomous person (although i'm trying to break that me when i have the confidence i could handle the situation), and i wish i could bump into a lively and "makulit" guy. LOL And i think i haven't met him. Yet.

I wish i could hold his hands without feeling ashamed because he already knew what i'm feeling. The guy who would hold back tight and never let go. The guy who would take me to his house to meet his family and friends. The guy who could make me laugh always. Serious when it comes to his feelings. The funny and serious. And now that's complicated. LOL

I remember our interesting conversation of the company driver, while on the way to a pre-bid conference to meet my boss. Here is the convo:
Mang E: Eh 'di daig mo pa kuya mo, may boyfriend ka siya walang girlfriend.
Me: Ah e wala po akong boyfriend (kamot sa ulo, lagi nlang kasi ako napagkakamalang may bf daw.)
Mang E: Wala? Mapili ka siguro, 'no?
Me: Hindi po. Wala pong lumapit sa 'kin. Natatakot po yata.
Mang E: Eh ano bang hinahanap mo sa lalaki?
Me: Mabait po.
Mang E: Mabait lang? Eh di pwede na yung basta nakatayo lang dyan. Mabait sila e, walang ginagawa.
Me: (napangiti sa corny joke niya hehe) Yung nagtatrabaho at nagsusumikap naman po.
Mang E: Oo, tama. Huwag ka ding maghanap ng guwapo.
Me: Kasi baka lalaki pala ang hanap imbes na babae?
Mang E: Isa yun. 'yung mga guwapo kasi, madalas ay mataas din ang standard nila. Bukod don ay may mga maloloko at o kaya naman maraming chicks na aaligid sa mga yan. Marami kang kaagaw. Lagi kang magseselos. Pero hindi naman 'yung pangit ang piliin mo. 'yung presentable namang tignan.
Me: (Napapangiti at tumango) Hindi naman po ako naghahanap ng guwapong-gwapo. Baka maloko silang lahat.
Mang Ed: Hindi naman lahat, maloko. Kaming mga lalaki e nakakaramdam din ng pagkabog ng dibdib. Kapag nakikita namin yung gusto namin, naku, kinakabahan na. At saka, kami, minsan, nawawalan kami ng lakas ng loob na sabihin sa babae na gusto namin sila lalo na kapag nararamdaman naming walang pagasa. Ah, 'yun pala ang di dapat. kasi dapat kung gusto e hinihintay 'yan. At saka lalaki kami, dapat kami ang lumalapit at naghihintay. Kaya hwag kang unang magpapakita ng motibo sa mga lalaki.
Me: Opo, hindi po. (tawa) May alam po ako sa ganyang ugali ng mga lalaki.. Naka-experience na ko ng ganyan. (kwento ng experience)

And I won't tell you my personal experience. LOL. haha Because of that conversation, medyo nagka-ideya lang ako sa feelings ng mga lalaki. Anyway, we were all human beings. Nagkakamali. Nakakaramdam. Nasasaktan.

Talk about love and relationship. May inspiration na ko. :)

The "writer mode", Rhoma Reyes, Signing off. ^_^

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MRT, Sakay na!

Nakasakay ka na ba ng MRT?

Metro Rail Transit o MRT. Isa ba ‘to sa sinasakyan mo sa t’wing papasok ka sa school, opisina, o kaya naman ay kapag namamasyal ka? Inaamin ko, isa ako sa mga libo-libong parokyano ng MRT kada araw.  “Libo-libo” talaga ang tantsa ko, ang dami talaga kasi ng mga tao, e. Isa ako sa mga ulong nadagdag sa 540,000 na pasahero na sumasakay sa MRT araw-araw.

Isa ako sa mga nadagdag na parokyano ng MRT simula ng matanggap ako sa trabaho ko. Bilang bagong gradweyt at lisensiyadong propesyonal, hindi dapat ako mapili sa una kong trabaho. Malayo man o… malayo (no choice)— gora lang, ang mahalaga ay maumpisahan ko nang gamitin ang lahat ng nalaman ko sa loob ng anim na taon na pagsusunog at pagbubunot(joke) ko ng kilay, para na rin makatulong sa pamilya. Kung maraming tulad ko na nadagdag sa populasyon ng tao sa MRT, hindi ko alam kung kumikita ba “sila” sa amin o talo-talo pa, dahil sa nakakainis at nakakainip na sistema nito. MRT sa umaga, pagpasok sa opisina. MRT sa gabi, pag-uwi. Galing akong Commonwealth Avenue at dahil mahirap sumakay ng jeep na papunta sa North Ave., no choice ako kundi ang sumakay papuntang MRT Q-Ave Station, ang pangalawang istasyon (Kung galing ka sa Northbound). Bumababa naman ako sa Magallanes Station, ang pangalawa sa pinaka-huling istasyon ng tren. Kahit kailan, hindi ko naging opsyon ang mag-bus dahil sa bagal na daloy ng trapiko sa EDSA.

Grabe, ang dami pala nating problema sa transportasyon sa lupa, pa’no pa sa karagatan at himpapawid? Baka kapag natuloy ‘yung plano nilang magkaroon ng “subway train” baka mabulabog ang mga lamang-lupa na ayon sa lola ko ay naninirahan pa din sa Maynila. Pero ‘di bale, matagal pa ‘yon. Baka mga fifty years bago maumpisahan ang proyektong ‘yon. Hindi pa raw kasi kasya ang budget… pero marami silang idadagdag na “pork barrel” sa Senado. Siksik liglig, umaapaw. Gagawa pala ako ng kunyariang organisasyon tapos magmamakaawa ako sa kanila na bigyan ako ng pera para sa organisasyon ko. Tapos sasabihin ko, pipty-pipty kami. Kung ayaw “niya”, de sige, mabait ako kaya 60:40 na lang pala. Sarap buhay! Eherm, hindi nga pala ako magaling sa pulitika kaya itigil na natin ‘tong usapang ‘to. Pero tinamaan ng lintik ‘yan, dahil nagta-trabaho na pala ako, nadagdagan na naman ang mga taong kakaltasan nila ng sahod. Hay, tama na nga. Bago pa ‘to maging fifty pages sa haba, huwag na muna nating pag-usapan ang ibang problema sa inang bayan natin, lalo na ang pulitika. Sa ngayon, magko-concentrate na lang muna ako sa MRT.

Okay, ngayong nalaman niyo na tatakbo ako bilang presidente ng Pilipinas, iboboto niyo na ba ako? De, joke. Siyempre dahil tapos na akong ikuwento kung sa’n ako galing at kung bakit ako napadpad sa MRT, sisimulan ko ng isa-isahin ang mga naobserbahan ko sa tuwing sumasakay ako ng tren na ito. Para sa akin, kakaibang experience ang makasakay sa MRT natin. Minsan, masaya dahil nakakarating ka sa paroroonan mo ng maaga, madalas nakakainis, yung tipong mapapamura ka na sa sobrang hussle sumakay dito. Pero kahit na ganoon, “It’s more fun in the Philippines” pa din siyempre. Aba naman, siyempre, it’s more fun talaga. Masaya maging Pinoy, `di ba?

Number one-O-one point one na rule— huwag kakalimutang mag-CR bago sumakay sa MRT. Kaya nga may CR sa bawat MRT Station, e. Kung tiwala naman kayong hindi kayo aabutan ng “tawag ng kalikasan”, o ‘di kaya’y maiihi, keri lang, ginusto n’yo ‘yan. Huwag lang sana kayong matulad sa taong na nakasabay ko sa MRT. Talaga namang nagpasabog ng “hanging habagat” mula sa paparating na “unos” sa loob ng tren. Dapat kasi tinatanong mo muna ang “okay ka ba tiyan?” o di kaya’y uminom ka na lang ng Yakult. Huwag na natin siyang pangalanan dahil hindi ko siya kilala, ni hindi ko nga alam kung sino sa mga katabi ko, basta ang alam ko, hindi ako ‘yon. Basta mga katoto, konting malasakit lang sa nakiki-amoy. Pagdating naman sa pabango, please lang, huwag po ‘yung matapang na pabango. Nakakahilo.

Maituturing ko na ang pagsakay sa MRT ay parang video games. May level one, two at three. Dahil no choice ka, kailangang mong malampasan ang mga level na ito. “Never say die!” dapat ang drama ng mga taong sasakay ng MRT. Kaya kung parokyano ka ng MRT, saludo ako sa inyo! Eksperto sa paghihintay, pagbabalanse, at mahaba ang pisi niyan. Ang level one, iyong tipong kararating mo lang sa istasyon ng MRT. ‘Yung hindi ka pa nakakatapak sa hagdan paakyat, e, may pila na. Dito, inihahanda ang sarili mo sa tunay na labanan sa susunod na level. Kailangan, patient ka. Kadalasan nangyayari ang pilang ito mga bandang alas-siyete pa lang ng umaga o di kaya’y alas siyete ng gabi. Masyado kasing maraming tao sa platform kaya naman ipinapatigil ang pagpasok ng mga tao sa MRT. Maraming tao dahil kaunting tren ang dumadaan. Kaunting tren pero ang kaunting tao lang din ang maisasakay (kapag hindi ka galing sa dulong station). Sa level two naman, ay kapag na-inspeksyon na ng guard ang bagahe mo, nakabili ka na ng ticket at maghihintay ka na sa platform para sa tren. Advise lang: kung madalas ka namang sumakay ng MRT, mag-stored card ka na lang para mabilis. Sa level three naman ay ang pagsakay mo ng MRT. Kung dumaan ang skip train, ikaw na ang pinaka-masuwerteng tao sa balat ng Maynila. Kung hindi, humanda ka na sa tunay na laban.

Minsan naisip ko, ano kaya kung sumali tayo sa sa Guiness Book of Records sa paramihan ng magkakasyang tao sa isang tren? Mas masuwerte pa ang sardinas sa lata, may space pa para sa sabaw. Pero sa MRT? *iling* Anyway, highway, ayos lang sana kung lahat ng tao ay nagmamalasakit sa kanilang kapwa. Madalas kasi, hindi e. Sikuhan, balyahan, tulakan at kung paminsan, sipaan. Grabe, people. *iling ulit* Pinanganak pa tayong wrestler? Boksingero? May mga matatandang hindi pinapaupo, may mga buntis na nakatayo, may mga batang dala ng kanilang magulang na hindi nakaupo. Tsk. Tsk. Hindi naman sa nilalahat ko, may mga pagkakataon naman na mayroong mabubuting loob na nagpapaupo sa mga nabanggit ko. Hindi ko naman masisi ang iba dahil sumusunod lamang sila sa agos ng tao na siyang nanunulak. Wala rin akong balak manisi, lahat naman kasi tayo nagmamadali. Inuulit ko, kaunting malasakit lang sa kapwa, mga katoto. May napapansin akong lalaki (na hindi naman ganoon katandaan) na pumupuslit sa bahagi ng tren na para sa mga babae. May mga tao sa gitnang parte ng tren na ayaw umurong kahit nakikitang siksikan at halos hindi na makahinga ang mga taong nasa pinto ng tren. Nakakalungkot na may mga tao talagang makasarili, maging komportable lamang sila sa kanilang pwesto ay ayos na. Wapakels na sila sa iba. Urong-urong din sa gitna ‘pag may space, lalo na sa mga malayo pa ang babaan. Maraming ayaw umurong dahil daw malapit na ang istasyon na bababaan nila. Katanggap-tanggap na dahilan pero inuulit ko, kaunting sakripisyo lang. Ganito talaga mabuhay sa mundo, parang bato, it’s hard. Pero kahit na ganoon, dapat hindi natin nalilimutan tumulong, magbigay at magmalasakit sa kapwa.

Gusto kong itanong mula sa kinauukulan, may pag-asa pa kayang maibsan ang ganitong problema sa MRT? Parami ng parami ang mga taong sumasakay dito. Sana naman po, may gawin silang paraan para mabawasan ang ganitong paghihirap ng mga commuters. Kung madadagdagan ng sampung piso ang pamasahe sa MRT, be sure it would all be worth it. Mahalaga ang pera sa pangaraw-araw, dapat sulit ang lahat ng ginagastos namin.

Maiba tayo, MRT was constructed to lessen the traffic congestion in EDSA, right? (nosebleed) Pero bakit ganu’n, parang walang pinagbago. Traffic pa rin sa EDSA madalas. Hindi na bagong balita ‘yan. No’ng ginawa ang MRT, oo, at nabawasan daw ng kaunti ang daloy ng trapiko pero hindi nagtagal ay dumami rin ang mga pribado at pampublikong sasakyan na dumaraan dito kaya back to normal na naman. Anyway, out of the topic na at lalo lang humahaba, nabanggit ko lang kaya pagbigyan na.

Sa mga kababayan kong kasangga ko sa pagsakay sa MRT araw-araw, saludo ako sa inyo! Ang titibay niyo, e. Survival of the fittest ang peg kapag sumakay ka ng MRT. Kung mahina ka, talo ka. Pero may pag-asa pa, mga kabayan. Tandaan niyo, ang mga kabataan ang pag-asa ng bayan! Mabuhay ang bansang Pilipinas! Punitin ang Sedula! Biro lang.

Sa mga Juan dela Cruz na hindi pa nakakasakay ng MRT, ano pang hinihintay niyo? Sakay na!

#EffortSaPagType #WalangMagawa #Opinyon #Pilipino

Letters From The Past

As I was browsing through the letters i have received during the past six years of my life (since 2007) and read my diary (during first sem, 2nd year college, 2008), i suddenly felt nostalgic. Sino bang hindi? Even the letters were heartwarming. I wish i could hug the sender who sent those letters everytime i finish reading the letters one by one.

To my friends, I wish i could apologize to them for being so serious back then. I was a very serious person. Was. Anyway, we're still friends kaya kapag nagkita kami one of these days, sasabunutan ko na lang yong mga yon. hehehe. chossss! I love my bestfriends... Ang dami na naming napagdaanan, ang we're still friends until now. Nagkikita-kita kapag may time even though may kaniya-kaniya ng trabaho.

Oh, well... back to the letters. There's this letter... from... special someone. He was one of our classmate. I remember whenever he would talk to me, lagi niyang kinukuwento kung paano ko daw siya napabilib noong nag-solve ako sa blackboard noong differential calculus namin. LOL He wrote that letter during my 18th birthday (third year na ako non, one year ago simula noong una ko siyang nakilala). I also wish i could hug him right now. Gusto kong sampalin ang sarili ko sa pambabalewala ko sa kaniya. I'm so childish. Takot kasi ako sa relationship noon since studies first naman talaga ako. (sigh) After reading the letter, napangiti ako ng mapait at gustong mapakanta: "Why can't it be the two of us?" LOL. Ang tanga ko kasi natakot ako... ilang beses kong tinanggihan iyong movie date na pinaguusapan namin dati. We even had an agreement na "kami na," noong August 28 yata iyon. Nakasulat sa papel. Anyway, iche-check ko sa aking diary. Malamang ay naroon iyon. So, nawala ko iyong papel kung saan na nakasulat na "kami na". Ang tanga lungs. One of this days, i promise na kakalkalin ko iyon sa mga papel ko sa bahay. (hindi kasi ako nagtatapon ng papel)

God knows how I want to say "yes" when he asked me if we could go out and watch movie. Nagpaalam ako sa mother ko but hindi niya ako pinayagan. I remember regretting na nagpaalam ako. Sana tumakas na lang ako. HEHE So bantay sarado si mother dear nung sabadong iyon... talagang hindi ako nakalabas ng bahay.

Although natuloy ang movie date namin, wala na si mother dear para suportahan ako. Nagkita lang kasi at nakausap ko siya noong burol ni mother. Biro mo, nag-effort pa siyang samahan ako sa pinakamalungkot na bahagi ng buhay ko sa kabila ng... *sigh* We went out last valentines day (nilibre niya ako. hehe) and no'ng pumasa ako ng board, bilang isa sa mga celebration ay ako naman ang nanlibre sa kaniya. LOL

After reading his letter, i was like: "Sayang, ganito pa rin kaya ang feelings mo sa akin ngayon? I have no idea." I really, really wanted to ask him right now, but as usual takot na naman ako. Diosmio, sana po huwag niyang mabasa ito. HAHA. Hmmm..

I want to thank him for being special to me since day one. He may not be there everyday, but i can feel his presence during the most important days of my life, nakakalungkot man, masaya o sakto lang Anyway, siguro ay panapanahon lang. May iba man siyang napupusuan ngayon, okay lang, susuportahan ko siya. ^_^

Ang drama kooooo! chosssss. throwback sunday ang drama xD

Breaktime Notes

I want to write but i can't get the mood to write. I was able to imagine scenes but it seems like its impossible to be put it in a paper now. Huhu kailan kaya... I really do one thing at a time. Hindi ko yata kaya ang sabay. Hays. Breaktime namin. Busy mode. Stress level maximum to 99.9%. Thought i'd prefer this way. No negative thoughts about other things. Just work related stress. Anyway... Pagdating naman ng breaktime, naiicp ko din. Kasi... Kasi... I hope everything's gonna be okay...

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Saturday Blast

Okay. I just want to write another post. Pagbigyan na. :P


Oh well, its monday again tomorrow. I'm a bit worried because the suppliers i've called didn't passed their quotations yet. amp. i really hate convincing people but i know that its all part of life. waaaa. talk about weakness. lagot kasi ako kapag hindi ko nakuha ang mga quotations (list of prices) sa monday. haha anyway, i can do this! konting tiyaga lang, Rhoma. Face your fears. You'll get stronger each day...

The consolation is, may bago kami this week. New co-employee. ^_^ I'm not alone. hohohoho

I know how to fax naaaaaaaaaa! hehe if there's one thing that i like about facing fears is learning new things. Hehe I am able to make phone calls but i'm still an amateur on speaking. Mahina raw ang boses ko. Feeling ko naman kasi, malakas. Ayoko lang naman marinig hanggang sa pangatlong row ng cubicle yung boses ko. Mahina raw? xD

ANywayyyyyy. i hate disappointing other people kaya sana, sana naman ay magpasa na sila ng quotation dahil talagang kukulitin ko sila!

Maiba tayo...

I really had a great day yesterday.. I want to thank Nikka and friends for dragging me (literally. LOL) sa PHR cocktail party. Gusto ko talaga kasing tumakas since nahihiya ako dahil wala pa akong pinapasang manuscript since the start of the year. Tapos 100 days before Christmas na, wala pa din. ahuhu Anyway, i really promise na magsusulat na ako. Sa office kasi ako nagsusulat, e. Tuwing umaga at hapon. I'll be writing the chapter by chapter events tonight. Waaaaaaaaaaaa!

I bought books like World War Z by Max Brooks, Lovestruck by Ronald Molmisa and Life is Too Short. And ofcourse, mawawala ba ang pagbili ko ng pocketbooks? haha! Ibinili ko ng books ang boss ko since nagbabasa din pala siya ng pocketbooks. :D

Unexpectedly, i was dragged (again) to sleepover sa bahay ng bestfriend kong si ate Rash. I really love her family. They were very friendly and accommodating. Although, forgive me, i couldn't memorize all their names (kahit ilang beses na akong nagpupunta do'n) T.T

I hate that I suck at memorizing names and faces. :'( i really feel bad when i couldn't recognize the people who knows me. Dapat kilala ko rin sila, di ba? huhu

Engr. Rhoma Reyes, signing off. Have a nice week days ahead! ^_^

To The Real Me

I've been contemplating about myself... and there are many things that I found out about myself. This is because it seems like I don't know myself anymore. Have I changed or pretending to be someone I'm not just for the people to accept me?

I am the person who secretly fears first time experiences.You won't find any thrill in my bones. I just want a smooth life sailing into a calm sea. If possible, I want to run away from those first time experiences or postponed it. But no matter how I ran away and how many times I postpone it, if it's inevitable and I have no choice but to face it, that is the time I am stressed up to the highest level. I hate first times for I am likely to commit mistakes. I know that it's okay to be wrong because you'll learn from it. But you know, when it comes to me, I think it isn't. You'll gonna find out why in the second paragraph.


I am a slow person. I don't get things at first unlike any other smart people. That is the reason why I don't understand why people 'looked up' to me like "Ikaw, pa. Sisiw lang sa `yo `yan." NO. When something is new to me, it takes time for me to get it. I'm such a slow person. I need a minute to think about the spelling of "Christmas" or even the correct pronunciation of "gravel". It requires TIME and much EFFORT for me to get familiar with a certain topic. What I could brag about is that I'm a hardworking person if it suits me. Meaning, if I want it, I want it. There's no more turning back-- by hook or by crook.

I also hate asking people. I'd rather find the answer myself if its possible. If not, thats the time i'll start asking questions. Its free to ask questions, but i believe finding the answer yourself is much better. You'd remember it easily right? XD

In terms of socializing with people, what i think about myself is i'm in the middle of being an introvert and the opposite of it. What is it called again? Extrovert? LOL. So, as i was saying i couldn't say if i'm "makulit" and talkative but i'm definitely not a people person. I usually hate phone calls. If possible, I'd rather talk personally or just a message in social networking sites or text will do. I don't say outloud whats on my mind, I write it in a piece of paper or type it as a status in my facebook account. I think many times before saying anything for i am afraid others might get hurt unintentionally.

I'm likely very easy to please and convince because i hate rejecting people. I'm a touchy person and always dwell in the past. i Love collecting sentimental items. So, what else? Tama na muna. Baba muna ko ng mrt. LOL

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Depressing thoughts

Minsan, nakakapagod ng umiyak. Ang sabi nila, kapag umiyak ka daw, magiging maganda ang pagkiramdam mo pagkatapos dahil nailabas mo na ang lahat ng sama ng loob mo. Sa kalagayan ko, hindi, e. Kadalasan kasi akong inuuhog ng ilang araw kapag umiyak ako at hindi 'yon maganda sa pakiramdam. Kapag pinigilan mo naman ang iyak, ang sakit din sa ulo at puso, literal. Masakit. Pati sa atay at balunbalunan. Kaya minsan, sumasakit din ang tiyan ko. Jusko, mamamatay na yata ako. Wag naman, 'di pa ko nagkaka-love life.

Hmmm. I miss my mother. I miss my father. I miss my brother. At ngayon, ang sakit ng ulo at puso ko dahil pinipigilan kong umiyak, nasa MRT ako. Kapag kasi ganitong nakatunganga ako at walang ginagawa kundi mag-antay ng istasyon kung san ako bababa, ang dami-dami kong naiisip na nakakapagpa-depress madalas sa 'kin. Minsan naiisip ko, wala na ba akong maiisip na masaya? 'yong matatawa't mapapangiti naman ako para mapagkamalan akong baliw sa MRT. Masaya kayang mapagkamalang baliw? Ma-try nga.

Hanggang ngayon, iniiwasan kong sumulat ng artikulo na nagsasabi ng lahat ng hinanakit ko at pagsisisi patungkol sa pagkamatay ni mama at ang relasyon namin ng papa ko at kuya ko. Ang hirap ilabas.

Sana nga totoo 'yung sinasabi nila na kapag inilabas mo lahat ng nararamdaman mo e magiging okay na ang pakiramdam mo pagkatapos. Iipunin ko lahat ng tapang ko para ilabas iyon.

Hanggang sa muli.

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Fun Friday Nights ^_^

Hello guys. Long time, no blog. LOL. I miss blogging. :)
There's a lot of under the sun topics i want to blog this past few days but im too lazy to write it down. Oh well, where will i start? Hmmm.

Let's start with what happened last week, friday. I was invited in a birthday party (one of Project Managers of water department). Luckily, i feel connected to him because he also came to our province (kapampangan) so we easily exchange thoughts about our province. I was with my co-engineers, and then they ask me to sing in the karaoke. If you read my previous blogpost, you'll know how i love singing in Karaoke, but in front of those professional engineers? To think that i was new to the company? I was like... "no way...ah, okay, okay, i'll sing, sir." hahaha. Ang kulit lang, pinilit kasi nila ako..ng konti. Nahiya din naman ako, sinong hndi? I couldnt even feel my hands in nervousness. I managed to sing three songs, though. (kapal ng mukha! Haha) everytime i finished a song, they would yell "more! More! Rhoma! Rhoma!" including the vice president of our dept, for heaven's sake! XD but after three songs, i refused to sing again and told them jokingly they will never get the chance to hold the microphone if they would let me sing again. Haha. It was fun. Nakikisigaw ako kapag sama-sama nilang sinisigaw (sa malalalim na boses, mga lalaki e) ang birthday jingle nila kay Sir Jun (The birthday celebrant hehe). But the most embarassing moment for me is when someone dragged me to dance. Buseeet! Haha seemed that someone is having a good time. LOL. He's not the birthday celebrant, but he's so talkative and pabida like the birthday celebrant. Haha at the end of the day or at the end of the night rather, umalis n kmi ng mga nine thirty. Dapat ay 8pm kami aalis, but they insisted to extend our stay there. Again, that was a fun experience. I got the chance to know DMCI field engineers one by one although after that night, wala na kong naaalala kahit isa sa kanila. Oh, forgive my memory gap. XD Kaya nga no'ng tuesday, someone greeted me and i couldnt remember him. Waaa. What a memory.. Even the person who drove us home, i couldnt remembr his face. XD but at least, i knew him by name. lol

Then another fun friday night yesterday. Together with my other co-engineers (tatlo kami hehe), we ate out after office hours. We just laugh, laugh and laugh hanggang pauwi. And the topic was me. Mga bully talaga iyong mga 'yon. Haha But in a good day, since it wasn't offending naman. Its how i handle the joke. LOL. Inaasar kasi ako, masarap daw kasi aqng asarin dahil nasa personality ko na raw iyon. Actually, isa sa mga inaasar nila sa akin during the past few days ay ang pagkakahawig ko raw kay Rhian Ramos. I was like, "Really?? What the heck!" Artistahin ang peg? Haha I denied it and said "ang layo po! Kaboses ko lang daw po" but they insisted. They even researched pictures of Rhian Ramos and then they both looked at me. Haha laughtrip, pareho pa daw nagsisimula sa "RH" at R ang pangalan at apelyido namin. LOL. Nakakahiya naman, sinasabi ko dito ito. Don't you ever tease me, people. Mahiya naman ako sa kutis at nose ko, ang puti at tangos ng ilong no'ng tao :P
LOL. Anyway, i admit, it wasn't the first time someone told me i looked like the young controversial actress. Hindi ako ganoon kaganda, but they said our eyes and shape of the face were the same. Oh well, pati din daw sa boses. Anu ba 'yan nakakahiya na tuloy...

Ah basta, I wasn't the one who told myself that i looked like Rhian Ramos. Everytime na may nagsasabi sa kin nyan, skeptic pa din ako at di pa rin naniniwala. :P LOL

This is Engr. Rhoma Reyes, signing off and looking for more fun friday nights :)

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Hmmm part 2 ^_^

Kapag may nagustuhan talaga akong kanta, ulit-ulit talaga ang kantang 'yon. Kagaya na lang ng "Made in the USA" ni Demi Lovato at "We can't stop" ni Miley Cyrus. At marami pang iba. I really love pop music. :) I won't brag about how i love music, kasi pasumpong-sumpong lang ako, e. Minsan, nakiki-update, minsan hindi. Pero ganito ko maipapaliwanag ang pagkahilig ko sa music: Iharap niyo sa akin ang Karaoke, at ako ang unang-unang kakanta. Volunteer ba. :') Ganyan kakapal ang mukha ko. Haha

Anyway, lately ay napapaisip lang ako sa isang bagay. Someone told me na studious daw aq, at sa "sobrang talino" ko raw e nakakakailang daw ako kausapin at tanungin ng mga bagay2 dahil baka mapahiya raw sa akin. Am I really this unapproachable? Really? Ilang ulit ko bang sasabihin na hindi ako matalino. Huhu Isa lang akong normal na tao na nagttyagang magaral noon dahil iyon naman talaga ang dahilan kung bakit tayo pumapasok sa school db? Matagal ko ng nararamdaman na may mga taong intimidated sa akin kaya ayaw ako kausapin. Hindi naman ako nangangain ng tao, madali naman ako kausap. Kapag kinausap niyo ako, kakausapin ko din naman kayo.

Ako kasi ang tipo ng tao na sumusunod sa attitude ng tao na nakakasalamuha ko. Kapag makulit, makulit ako. Kapag tahimik, tahimik din ako. Mahiyain ako, e. Kaya talagang inaantay ko na mauna silang kausapin ako. I don't know why im like this. Maybe because im afraid of rejection. Never pa naman aqng d kumausap ng taong naunang kumausap sa kin kaya, i promise, di talaga kayo mapapahiya.

*sigh* wala,e. Ganito na ako. I cannot change myself. Now i know kung bakit kaunti lang din ang male friends ko. To think that i'm in engineering field. I have many aquaintances but friends? Nabawasan pa ng isa because of his conflict to my bestfriend. Ofcourse, even though kaibigan ko xa, i chose my bestfriend..anyway, as i was saying, No one really have the courage to talk to me outside studies.

Kaya siguro, iyong mga opposite ko ang mas makakasundo ko. Tingin niyo? Haha

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Hmmm

Every time I feel I'm the dumbest person in the world, I would just console myself when I passed the board and my mentor told me, "magaling to, e." No'ng sinabi niya sa akin ito noong oath taking when I ask her if I could take some pictures with her, grabe talaga ang tuwa ko. I couldn't believe that she acknowledged my effort. Not that I'm bragging that "I'm smart"-- hindi po ako matalino. A big NO. Ito iyong paniniwala sa sarili ko na kaya ko pala. Na hindi ko dapat minamaliit ang sarili ko. Masaya ako dahil hindi man sa katalinuhan kung bakit niya ako nakilala, somehow, she had seen my efforts. And that's the most important thing. EFFORT.

Anyway, lately ay lagi akong nagkakamali. Sino ba ang gustong magkamali? Sometimes, ang hirap ng nagsisimula but you have to be strong. There are many people who will belittle you, and all you have to do is to prove them they are wrong. I'm having a hard time proving myself to everyone. Ah, lahat naman ng bagay ay mahirap sa umpisa. Lagi ko ngang sinasabi sa sarili ko na "keep pushing, Rhoma".

Iba talaga ang actual sa theory na pinagaaralan sa school. More learnings sa actual. Kaya mo iyan, Rhoma!

Another Day

Good morning, my blog. This is another day of my life. I'm actually having a really smooth week unlike the previous weeks, but i feel stressed as usual. Ah, kailan ba 'yon nawala? Anyway, i don't have the appetite to eat every meal but im trying very hard to eat because my body needs it. And when i do that, i feel nausating all the time. :(

Oh, no. Its not what you think. I'm not, you know, pregnant. Haha! Baka kasi iniisip niyo. It's just im like this when i have many things in mind. And i always have many things in my mind so im always stressed. LOL ano daw?

I wonder when will i gain weight. I
'm underweight because of my height. my weight is 49.40kgs but my height is 165cm so underweight talaga. Haha My Godmother told me to take some vitamins. Hmm. I'll think about it.

So...they say its payday today. LOL. Wag niyo kong hohold-up-in dahil hindi ko alam kung kasama aq sa susuweldo because my timesheet was not gven to me. Haha.

I actually just have 2 hours of sleep since i slept 3.30am. I worked out my template sheet on estimation of valve box,and because of my slowness, i finished it 3 hrs. Damn it. Lately, what bothers me is that im taking time to accomplish something. But time is gold, i knew it have to catch every learnings fast. Hayy. I'm such a slow learner...

I gotta go, folks. Good morning. :)

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Remembering my Mother

I woke up, crying. I dreamt about my mother. And God, I missed her soo much. I want her to stay. She said she would leave because we wanted to. Oh, mother. Sorry. So sorry if you think we gave up on you. That's not what we wanted. We don't want to see you suffer...and we couldnt take seeing you like that. If we're in pain, God knows how much you're more in pain. I love you and I missed you, Ma...

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Purpose in Life?

Time to compose a blog entry. Yehey!

I dont know why i can't post a new blogpost using the computer. So i'm trying to post using my phone. :) I hope it'll work.

So, unlike my previous blog entry, i feel better today. All my stress were washed away after i messaged my father and got the rare chance to see my college bestfriends, ate Rashmi and Lady Rose. And ofcourse, last but not the least, Our basketball team Gilas Pilipinas made it to the Finals of FIBA Asia. Wuuuu! The game was exciting. It's not predictable since at the start of the fourth quarter, it became a seasaw game against the Korea. :)

Anyway, I realized, its true that never compare others chapter 20 to your chapter1. I agree. *sigh* (emo mode turn on) If only i had the self confidence, which i don't really have no matter how i try, i wouldn't be stressed everytime i would go to work. Damn that photocopy machine. That machine ruined my whole week. I don't know why. It's just, what the hell, i didnt do anythng, it just went crazy all of the sudden. Almost half a ream of bondpaper were... wasted. And basically speaking, its all my fault. Although deep down to myself, i really, didnt do anything para ma-recopy yun ng madaming beses. How frustating.

I almost cried that day, thinking at the middle of the busy station of MRT, about what on earth was my purpose in life? Why is it so hard to live with other people? Why i always fail, feel like the dumbest person in the planet? Why do I have to feel so down, that i hate myself so much? Sometimes, i feel that I'm not afraid to die anytime, im just afraid it would hurt. Because i don't think i have a purpose in life. Yes, I have many dreams. But what will i get when i reach my dream? When i think of my mother and our dreams, i would just cry silently. My mother won't be here anyway. No matter how i want to hug her, i couldn't. No matter how many times i would utter the word "sorry", she won't come back... One of the reason why i'm lonely because i missed her whenever i feel so low. less than three months na lang, one year death anniv na Mama. Sometimes, life is just so hard.. Hard to let go. Even though the memories were painful, its hard to erased it on my mind.

That's what i felt yesterday. But God really is good. He gave me a looong break to recover about how i felt this week. Holiday plus weekends. Time to think peaceful thoughts and have great time with friends, aunt and brother.

Maganda pa rin 'yong marami kang napapagsabihan para mailabas ang frustration. Stress absorber ba. You are one of my stress absorber, my blog. Now i know what is my purpose in life-- to continue searching... For real hapiness and lovelife. Kailan kaya ako magkaka-love life? Sabay ganun. Hehe!

Gilas Pilipinas. Laban at Puso. Thats what i'm talking about! I'm proud to be a Filipino.

Pingris, Ocampo, Alapag, Fonacier, Castro, Chan, David, etc., great job! Panalo ang steal ni pingris and three point shots by Alapag in the last quarter. All the hardwork worth it! Way to go #spain2014 ! Finals bukas with Iran, kahit surebol na, galingan niyo pa dn, mga men. ^_^

Babala, ang entry na ito ay masyadong emosyonal. Masaya at malungkot. Bipolar lang. LOL

Oops, sorry. Too late to say that.

Till next time. Goodnight!

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MRT

The title is where i am right now when typing this blogpost. Guadalupe station na raw. Haha So, since my station is 2nd to the last station pa, i'll just compose a blogpost. Pampalipas oras.

Well, i feel sad and frustrated again. I don't understand and imagine what on earth happened to the plan of pre-cast element that was gven to me. I was suppose to compute the formworks and volume of concrete, but how could i? Tskk. Bukas na lang daw. Buti na lang, mabait si Ma'am. Haha although iniisip ko pa din kung bakit hindi kaintindi-intindi ang pesteng plano na 'yon.. Huhuhuhu i wonder if i could sleep peacefully.. T.T

Try and try...!

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Don't Judge the Book by its Cover

Most of the time, i feel rejected. Rejected. Why? Because I think some people judge me according to the way they want to think of me based on my mere actions. Yes, you judge people based on what they say and act but they didn't care to understand why i act like that. They didn't care... to look deep into that person. We mostly judge the person that we don't know that much or even... personally. Sometimes, we are being defensive (enumerate reasons why we judge that person) because that's what we want to believe and eventually, hoping to get sympathy with other people. It's true that you cannot please other people. Show them the real you, and they will reject you. Say what you feel and they will judge you. Oh, We people. We hate our own shadows, right?

Do we have a right to judge people? No. Because we don't know what they're going through. Unless you want to take a fit on their shoe once in your life? But you don't want to. And since that's impossible, why judge them?

"Learn to respect all kinds of people because everyone is fighting a battle on their own. We all have our own problems, bad side and bad days. But their is so much more behind it."

-credits to the owner of the quote. :)

Okay lang sabihin ang opinyon natin sa isang tao. Pero, hindi yata maganda kung ulit-ulit na nating jina-judge yung tao at nakakasira na ng pagkatao 'yong mga sinasabi natin. That's too bad, right?

Remember: Don't be too defensive.

Anyway, i guess i should learn to care a little less to those people. Ah, but more thanks to them, i learned to strive more and to continue reaching my goals. I still haven't proven anything so i'll just work my butt out and do my best to concentrate to my career, making sure i'm not hurting other people.

Haha. Wala na naman akong mapost. Ang gusto ko lang naman sabihin, bakit wala akong lovelife? Hahahaha!

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Work. Work.

I feel... stupid. Very stupid. Ang sabi nila, naguumpisa pa lang kasi si ako kaya gano'n. Pero kailangan ba talaga mahirapan ako ng ganito? >.< lately, nada-down ako. Kasi busy sila, samantalang ako ay petiks lang. I don't know what to do. What to do? The truth is, i have no idea what they were doing. I want to ask questions, but i don't even know where to start with. So... maybe i'll start researching all by myself. Baka isa-isang masagot ang mga "unknown" questions ko. Wala  na kasi akong magawang tama. Kanina, ilang ulit kong ginawa `yung summarization na scope of works ng cement plant project extension ng isang kompaniya. Pero mali, e. Ang tagal kong ginawa, mali pala. Tapos `di ko pa masyadong maintindihan. Ang bopols ko lang lately. Ganito pala ang working environment. Kaka-stress. HAHA.

Sinasabi nila, kasi naguumpisa ka palang. One week na ako bukas, pero feeling ko ay wala pa akong nagagawang matino. haha! Documentation na nga lang, hindi ko magawa ng tama. I wish i could cope up with work easily. I need inspiration... parang dati.

hayyyyy...

Over Acting

Damn it! I can't help my freakin' tears! why am i crying? Its not as if I'm dying. Its just... Why the heck?? Maybe I just have to blurt this out.

So... I went to the office to get my fit to work certificate. But i didn't. It's not actually a life-threathening stuff but it really bothers me. I have to go to Orthopedic doctor to have my medical clearance so I could work. As much as I hate doctors and hospitals, I have to see a bunch of them later on in my life. Oh, life. Isn't it Ironic? Tsk.

Maybe, Its just i remember what happened to my mother. Ako kasi laging kasama sa check-up pati sa pananatili sa Ospital. I just don't want to see a doctor again.

But what would I do? I don't have much choice. I just wish its not severe as I thought so I could have my medical clearance and start to work.

Ah, I don't want to be tall anymore. I would do everything to give my 4in height to anyone. LOL

Wish me luck tomorrow. :)

There. I feel good na ulit. ^_^

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Coincidence or a Sign?

Once upon a time... After looking for a job at jobstreet, I browsed my facebook account and accidentally clicked the "update work and education" link. Names of some companies appeared and I saw the company DM Consunji, Inc. (DMCI) and clicked it without knowing that it will be automatically added to work and education section of my profile. (akala ko kasi, page lang `yon. Titignan ko lang sana `yong profile). I suddenly panicked because some of my friends liked the update post of mine which says I'm "currently working" in DMCI. I deleted it quickly. Then I suddenly thought, why not apply in DMCI? I browsed the facebook page of the company and saw there were job vacancies. And after seeing that, nag-send agad ako ng resume sa e-mail ng DMCI and said I was interested in the job. And to cut the story short, I was invited for exam and initial interview, waited two weeks for their reply and waited another week for final interview, and viola! I am now hired to their company! :)

Is it destiny? Kung hindi ako nagkamali ng pindot no'n, naisip ko kayang mag-apply sa DMCI? Siguro. Pero hindi ko agad maiisip. Hehe! Maybe its a sign, right? I sacrificed many opportunities... akala ko, Hyder ang tatawag, pero one of my dream company called-- DMCI. Dream company talaga.

I want to thank God for not giving up on me. I always have continuous prayers to the point that hindi na yata maubos-ubos `yong mga panalangin ko sa kaniya. Thank you po, papa God. I love you! Thank you for giving me enough patience and a lot of motivation.

This is it! I'm on the right track, baby! I'm just soooo happy. ^_^

Wala na sa `kin `yong comment sa `kin na over-confident daw ako. Haha! I really didn't mean to sound over-confident but I am thankful that they contacted me inspite of that. I think I just have to prove them that their first impression is wrong-- about being "overconfident". I'll prove to them that I am someone that they could trust with, to talk to and someone who could be their friend. Mabait naman po ako :')

So, with that.. what do you think? Is it a coincidence or a sign?


Engr. Rhoma Reyes, signing off :)

Visitor's Pass during initial interview

Visitor's pass during Final Interview


I wonder kung puro 48 `yong mga number ng Vpass nila? Or is it my lucky number? LOL

Trying Hard

I'm really trying hard to learn how to add fonts in my blog but I don't freaking know how it was done. HAHA I tried to read the step by step process but... i can't understand. Gahd, I suck at Information technology codes stuff... as much as I hate C++ program! Damn.

After Movie Thoughts

I soooo love Ashton Kutcher! I mean, not because of his looks but his character in the movie "Killers". It's a romantic-action movie, just like the movie "Knight and Day". The way Spencer (Ashton Kutcher's character) took care of his wife (Katherine Heigl) to keep her safe, it's just soooo SWEET. I won't tell exactly what are my favorite scenes 'cause I don't wanna be a spoiler. I would just recommend you to watch it. ^_^

The movie makes me think about how does it feels when someone's protecting you… like, care for you? I want to feel that. Even though I stopped writing romance novels, I'll always be a hopeless romantic person.  I believe my poor prince charming's just over there, maybe stuck in a twig or something. HAHA. Okay fine, sometimes I'm bitter when it comes to other's relationship (when I see couple in public places LOL), 'cause I sometimes believe that I won't be having mine… ever.  But you know, maybe I'll just find out what's on the other side of the bridge when I get there. Whenever I say: "Hindi na ako magaasawa," lagi nilang sinasabi: "Kakainin mo din `yang sinasabi mo, hindi mo pa kasi nakikilala ang lalaking para sa `yo." Then I would just laugh at them with a big "HA-HA".

I don't know. Feeling ko lang, walang lalaking maglalakas loob na magsasabi ng "I love you" sa `kin. HAHA! Do you know that I'm smiling right now? I'm actually fighting myself not to laugh while writing this blog entry. Kapag nabasa `to ng hindi ko kilala, they would think I'm crazy. But what's crazy for assessing your own feelings and thoughts? HAHA

Okay. Let me tell you a secret. Ito ang tinatawag na "NEVER" checklist.

-Never pa akong hinatid ng isang lalaki sa house namin.

-No guy ever told me… ILY-- in the face. (shucks I want to cover my face)

-No guy has ever courted me. (Maybe because I'm ugly or my personality sucks. OR maybe because i'm not good in english HAHA)

-I've never been into a "romantic date" ( I had a few movie date but I don't even think it's a date because… we're just friends. That's what he told to my bestfriend. It's kinda weird that they're sometimes talking about me, you know. HAHA)

-I never had a first dance (wala kaming JS prom, e.)

-Never pa akong nabigyan ng flowers.

-Well… I've never fallen, madly, deeply, head-over-heels in love. YET.

-Never pa akong nagka-boyfriend. ( Okay, paulit-ulit na. I wouldn't say it again because I feel it sounds so embarrassing.)

Wala na akong sasabihin pa. Nakakahiya na, e. Sometimes, I want to ask myself, "Where on earth did you get all that romantic bones, stuffs and ideas, Rhoma?"

Ah, ano kayang pakiramdam na may nag-aalaga, nagaalala at pumo-protekta  sa `yo? I mean, in a romantic way, between a man and a woman.  I love myself( yeah, right), but how does it feels like when you know there are other person who love you too? xD Damn that movie, it makes me think of a thousand questions about relationship.

Since I've never been in a romantic relationship, "experience-ly" speaking, I don't know what I'm writing (in my novels). HAHA. But anyway, hindi naman ibig sabihin na hindi mo pa nae-experience ang mga sinusulat mo ay hindi `yon totoo. Who knows? Baka magkatotoo `yon. Hmmm. Which makes me think, may lalaki nga ba na katulad ng sinusulat ko na… almost perfect?

Damn right, nobody's perfect. I'm no Miss perfect so why should I look for Mr. Perfect? Nah, I don't even have a plan for looking. I  wrote this blog entry not because I want a lovelife, either. This is only my thoughts. Kung nasaan man ang prince charming ko, just keep calm and love... yourself first. HAHA if you don't love yourself, how on earth would you love me? LOL

Agh! I just want Ashton Kutcher himself. Can I take him home? LOL

Engr. Rhoma Reyes, signing off. :)

Hate. Love. Hate

I always hated answering phone calls who want to hire me as a call center agent. Hindi naman sa minamaliit ko ang pagiging call center agent. I admire them pa nga, e. Its just I suck in speaking in English and you're asking me to work in a call center? like duh? HAHAHAHAHAHA

I remember one of my professor told us that its acceptable if we, engineers, are not much good in speaking English. It's the thought that counts, right? LOL But hey, we're living in the Philippines and therefore I should just accept that English is our second mother language. So I think I should start practicing writing and speaking in English. I don't care if the grammar's wrong. hahaha.

So... I mentioned this because of what I acted during the last interview I had. Mental block. Damn mental block. I just couldn't express my thoughts... It's really shameful that in my age, i suck in speaking in English. I sometimes envy others because they could express their thoughts excellently in English. They sounded sooooo smart. When you can speak in English, they are smart. Right? Right? Right? *sigh*

So... I must start reading, speaking and watching english movies. LOL

And maybe, most importantly, i should keep calm and confident that I am the perfect applicant for that position. Okay! Now, I know what to do. (Yeah, right. Ganyan tayo, e. haha! )

I take back what i said in my last entry yesterday. I have many friends. Why would i feel so alone when I have many friends? What an emo. Haha! So, forgive me. It's me that I should blame. *sigh* Oopps! I am not an emo today. stop. stop. stop.

Signing off :)

DRAMA Blues

There are many things i want to say on this blog right now but i don't know where to start. LOL Anyway, it just feels kinda weird that.. like... I'm attached to someone. I look forward to this person's next message to me. LOL It's not that I feel something to him, but I really want to know that person more, as a friend. Sa kaniya kasi, nakukuwento ko ang mga nangyayari sa buhay ko. It just feels light when i talk to him :)

Siguro, ganito lang ang pakiramdam ng gusto mong may makausap ka kahit sandali lang. `Yong makukuwento mo sa taong `yon `yong nakakahiyang nangyari sa buhay mo nang ayos lang sa kaniya at hindi ka huhusgahan. `Yong may pakialam... Minsan kasi, i feel like i have no friends. Minsan lang naman. LOL

Ah, Thanks to him, i was able to blurt out my frustrations in life. He's really a friend...

Friend. What is the definition of a friend? During my 2nd year in highschool, a book once defined it as "Friend is a precious jewel" (Okay, hindi `yon definition kundi comparison). So ayun, indeed it is... a precious jewel. I always want to have precious jewels (friends), pero hindi ko pa nahahanap `yong ultimate bestfriend ko. Siguro dahil na rin sa personality ko na.. introvert. Yes, I believe I am sometimes an introvert. `Yong tipong mas gustong mapag-isa. Ang weird `no? `Yong tipong takot sabihin ang nararamdaman sa isang tao... kung natutuwa ba ako, naiinis, nagagalit. It's true that i don't live in other's opinion but i care about their feelings. 

*Sigh* I missed my few friends way back in college. Kapag naaalala ko `yong mga kalokohan namin no'n at kung gaano kami ka-close kumpara ngayon na may sari-sarili ng buhay, nakaka-miss lang talaga. Bakit kasi kapag nagkakaroon ng bagong buhay ang iba, hindi na nagre-reach out sa mga taong naging parte ng nakaraan nila. Minsan tinatanong ko, am i really their friend? or kaibigan pa rin ba ang turing nila sa 'kin? Sometimes, i feel like i deserved no one as a friend... kasi ayaw na nilang makihalubilo sa 'kin dahil busy na sila sa buhay nila. (drama mode)

Noon pa, hinahanda ko na ang sarili ko na mamuhay mag-isa-- ng hindi umaasa kanino man. Ang babaw ko talaga. Daig ko pa ang may problema sa lovelife. LOL

Its not really a problem, its just how i feel this week..o sa mga nakalipas na araw. Ah, poor me.

Next time, ang masaklap na lovelife ko naman ang ikukuwento ko. `Di ba, ang enjoy maging ako? But really, kahit ganito ako, i feel like I'm more fortunate than others pa rin naman. :) At least I have relatives that cares for me...

There are just some people whom i care about that they doesn't seem to care to me that much. *DRAMA*

Signing off.

....

How can I know if its true?
How would I know that its you?
Why am I feeling such a loner
When you seem not to care?

I do admit that I miss you
But I wont tell that it's you
Afraid to tell what I really feel
For you might ask if it's real


Hmmmmmmmm... I suck at poems. *crumpled the paper and threw it in the basket* Why am I... Missing you?

Ano nga palang nangyari sa katapusan ng Koreanovelang Missing You? XD

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Too Good to be True

I... I just hate what I'm feeling right now. I feel that nobody wants me. :( Well, I mean company. Job?

Nililinaw ko lang. Baka kasi iba ang iniisip niyo. :)

It's just... Discrimination. We have to put ourselves above it to prove something. I don't have any experience. What do you expect? I saw an ad on the internet, its qualification is: a licensed engineer (civil), 20-23 yrs of age, with at least 2 years of experience.

Who are you freakin' kidding? sinong ga-graduate ng 18 yrs old sa kursong inhinyeryang sibil at pumasa ng board exam? Meron siguro. The genius ones. But I'm no genius. :(

Maybe, it's too good to be true... even those companies. -_-

Oh, well, i hate pitying myself. I feel like everybody would laugh at me and say "you're nothing" o kaya mas lalo lang akong kaawaan. Haha. Anyway, i'm just blurting my feelings. Okay, naka-recover na ako. Laban lang ng laban. :)

Feeling ko, nakakabisado ko na ang mga procedures sa paga-apply. :) samantalang dati, i have no freaking idea how to apply. Kaya 'to!

Napapala ng pagiging mapili. I asked for this. Paninindigan ko 'to :)

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A Review to Remember

I asked for this. I'm not going to give up. :) Patience is a virtue. Currently waiting for a text... or a call. Oh, please... After this week at wala pang balita, magwo-walk in ulit ako. :)

I was browsing for the books my cousin's cousin asked for me when i saw my diary when i was reviewing for board exam. I feel like, okay, its a breathe of fresh air because i know that i made it. That time... Well, masaya lang alalahanin kaya pagbigyan na. haha. I remember writing my name with "Engr." to motivate myself. Just so you know, I do have a lot of inspiration/motivation. :) Then I always abbreviate my name as "Engr. RR". Minsan, 'di na ang sarili ko ang pinapatungkulan ko sa pangalan na 'yan kundi 'yung crush na crush kong instructor. haha. I HAD a very huge crush talaga sa kanya. ('huge' na nga 'very' pa.) But it passed. *shrugs* He's just different. I mean, he don't even know me. Haha. We don't talk to each other since He's the unreachable one. I just don't know why i felt like i really "like" him since he became our instructor back in our Special Topics subject. Hahaha! Talk about crazy feelings, huh? But then i realize maybe i was just "fangirling" to think that i started to stalk him in FB. Damn, I did it. xD
I message him, yes. Nakakatuwa kasi nireply-an niya ako ang "thank you" ko ng: "Welcome :)" Take note: With a smiley! Imagine how I giggle like a highschool girl that time. LOL. Kaya nga hinding-hindi ko makakalimutan 'yong pagre-review ko no'ng board exam. What a review to remember...

Wala lang, napakuwento lang. Minsan, ipo-post ko ang mga entry ko sa diary ko noon... Remember, wala pa akong trabaho kaya makakapagpost pa ko dito. :) Samantalahin na. Good evening!

Diary Entry
Date: January 27, 2013
"Staring at his picture, I know there's this unexplainable feeling that always overwhelms me. Thinking of him makes me smile for no apparent reason and Imagining him smile at me makes me giggle with joy like a gradeschool student..."

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Tulala sa Ayala

I had an exam at Ayala. Grabe, ang ganda pala doon. How I wish ganito ang buong Filipinas ( I used the word "Filipinas" dahil ito raw ang tamang tawag sa bansa natin simula ng dumating si Villalobos. History ito? haha) Anyway, central business district ang Ayala kaya dapat lang na gano'n siya kaayos at kaganda :)

Ah, that little happiness. Be happy ;)

If Hyder wouldn't hire me, i meant it, its okay. I really had a peace of mind at ayala triangle under that old tree. I sat on one of those stone bench and wrote this blog in a piece of paper. LOL.

I completely turned down the job offer of (company name). Sorry talaga kung ganito ako. I had a hard time saying that i could accept the job but there, i said it already. I made the bravest decision ever. Pero panindigan na 'to!

Out of topic:
I'm just wondering. What's the use of fighting your opinion with other's opposite opinion? Ako kasi ang tipong tao na kapag ayaw, ayaw. gusto, gusto. I admit, I'm really stubborn in someways. I always want to be independent. Ayoko ng dinidiktahan, lalo na kung magkaiba tayo ng paniniwala. Hindi ko naman kasi pinipilit sa iba ang paniniwala ko. Kaya nga anong inis ko kapag "pinapangunahan" ako ng ibang tao. My parents never dictated me what to do. Lagi silang nagbibigay ng paalala at pangaral, but then it was always me who would do the last decision. Siyempre, pinagiisipan ko naman ang desisyon ko.

hmmm. Paano kung mali ang paniniwala ko? Simple answer. I will ask papa God. Siya lang ang hahayaan kong dumikta sa 'kin ng hindi ko na kailangan magisip. SIYA lang. He is my source of wisdom and my shepherd...

Lord, sana tawagan nila ako :-) Maghihintay ako. ^^

July.. please be good to me.

Engr. Rhoma Reyes, signing off.

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Taking Chances

I always believed that I have a better future. My failures and success always remind me of that. Oo, ambisyosa ako pero sino bang hindi? I want to excel in my career. I worked hard for it and I believe I deserve a job that I think i would enjoy and give me many learnings, not just in technical knowledge but also as a person.

Ang sabi nga, "Choose the job you love and you will never have to work in your entire life". I saw how my brother lost his interest in his field because he didn't like his job (sana nga matagpuan na niya kung ano talaga ang gusto niyang trabaho as an Electronics Engineer). Ang mga experiences ng ibang tao at experiences ko ang kadalasang nakapagbibigay ng aral sa akin sa buhay. Para sa akin, marami kang matututunan sa mga pagkakamali mo-- at ng ibang tao. That is the reason why I want a job na makakapagpasaya sa akin. I always follow my gut feeling and proceed to what i really want. Kagaya na lang ng nangyayari sa akin ngayon.

There was this company that I applied last week. One day lang, hired na ako. Hindi ko alam ang dapat na maramdaman, matutuwa ba ako na sa wakas ay may trabaho na ako? Pero ang bilis kasi. Haha. May mga kompaniya pa akong in-apply-an at kasalukuyang naghihintay ng feedback. Inisip ko, kapag tinanggap ko ito, paano na ang mga dream company ko? My strategy is this: Inuna kong apply-an ang mga dream company ko. Mayroong nagsabi sa akin na never lose hope sa pag-aapply. Yes, i never lost my hope. Kaya nga ngayon, naghihintay pa rin ako, e! hehe. So ayun, kaya nga no'ng tinawagan ako ng Hyder Consulting Middle East para mag-exam, sa sobrang excitement ko ay naka-OO ako. Oo, alam kong exam pa lang iyon at may chance na hindi ako tanggapin at sa huli ay makakarinig ako ng walang kamatayang "We'll call you" pero sinong hindi mae-excite kapag pinagbuksan ka ng pinto para matupad `yong pangarap mo? Hyder's been my dream company. Actually, I want to enter construction industry because it's an in-demand job but I also want to try structural engineering-- to design buildings, bridges and many infastractures, urban planning, etc. But God, please help me to win this company. I am a versatile person, to the point that i don't know what really matters to me if its construction or structural, or hydraulics and water resources planning (because i also excel in Hydraulics and Geotechnical Engineering. Hehe.) Hindi ako gaano katalino sa Structural pero naniniwala akong kaya ko siya. Kakayanin. Kasi kapag gusto, gusto, kapag ayaw, maraming dahilan. HAHA.

Ang Hyder ang dahilan kung bakit ko tatalikuran ang paniguradong trabaho para sa akin. Maybe because i wasn't thrilled to the position (office engineer pero sa site project naka-base). Lumaki ako na puro pagsubok at laging may aabuting goal-- and that is to surpass myself. In the first place, kaya nga ako kumuha ng Civil Engineering ay dahil gusto kong malaman kung hanggang saan nga ba ang kakayahan ko at para may mapatunayan sa sarili ko. At hanggang ngayon, sa paghahanap ng trabaho, yun pa din ang hinahanap ko. Siguro, pangalawa na lang `yong salary at iyong company. Choosy na kung choosy, pero sino bang ayaw sa mas established na na kompanya? Hangga't may chance pa, go lang ng go. Dahil kapag nawala na ang chance na `yan, baka pagsisihan ko lang sa huli. I may think in the future that "What if i did that...?". But i know i could be making a decision na makakadisappoint lang sa akin. Pero hayaan na, ang sabi nga, ay wala namang maling desisyon kung paninindigan mo `yon. Kaya paninindigan ko na ito.

I will take the risk of getting my dream job than to play safe and not be happy.

This is Engr. Rhoma Reyes, signing off. :)

PS: Napapansin kong dumarami ang views ng blog ko. Bakit kaya? Nasanay ako na lima o sampung views lang ang inaabot ng blog ko, hindi ko naman kasi goal ang maging sikat sa larangan ng blogging. Kung sino ka mang nagbabasa ka, kung nandito ka para insultuhin ako o kastiguhin ang mga paniniwala ko sa buhay, well, I'm sorry to say, nagaaksaya lang po kayo ng oras. I wouldn't let the behaviors of others disturb my inner peace. Itago niyo na lang sa sarili niyo ang rants niyo at magsulat kayo ng sarili niyong blog. Okay? HAHA

YOU KNOW WHAT? Sa mga nagre-review ng mga novels, i suggest sana tignan niyo muna ang tamang paraan ng pagrereview. Alam niyo `yon? HAHA basa-basa din at pag-aralan ang tamang pagre-review kasi kayo lang ang nagmumukhang walang alam dahil hindi naman "review" iyong mga "reviews" na pino-post niyo. Hindi maiiwasan na ma-hurt ang mga writers sa mga "reviews" niyo, sinasabi ko sa inyo. Kahit kasi opinyon niyo lang `yan, nakaka-apekto iyon sa sistema ng writer, more than you ever know. I'm not saying na tigilan niyo ang pagre-review ng mga novels na binabasa niyo, but learn how to write a "decent and non-offending review". At sana po, `yong tamang pagre-review. Hindi `yong review puchu-puchu, may masabi lang. Kung may mga nobelang "MAY-MA" mayroon din namang mga "reviews" na "MAY-MA" din. Kung pwede nga lang na i-review ang mga "review" niyo, pero hindi na ako mag-aabala pa.

Nakakatawa lang na ultimo iyong hindi na dapat pansinin na detalye ay talagang in-elaborate pa. Nakakabilib ang effort niyo. But then, its your opinion. And this is my freakin opinion. So back off, dude.

Ire-review niyo ang nobela ko? Go ahead. I'm waiting for it, but I'm not buying it. Sige na nga, kayo na ang magaling sa literature, magagaling mag-ingles at kayo na rin ang the best sa pagsusulat ng nobela. Pwede isulat ang reviews niyo in pure tagalog tutal Tagalog naman ang nire-review niyo. Ika nga, mahalin ang sariling wika. Hindi ba, pareng Jose Rizal? HAHA.

Never Say Die!

In my facebook status, i said that i'm feeling determined. And yes, i do. I will not lose hope! Makakakuha din tayo ng magandang trabaho sa magandang kompaniya. When i say "magandang trabaho", it means good working environment and many learnings. I'm really excited to work, kung alam niyo lang. Excited to learn new thing, to meet new people, to experience new experiences. Ano raw? basta, i feel like I'm so positive this day. I realized God will never disappoint me if i will wait. And I promise, papa God, i will wait. :)

Many thanks sa mga taong nagpa-lift ng spirits ko. Salamat at ch-in-at ako ni Kuya Engr. Jason, nalaman ko kung ano-ano pang magandang kompaniya ang pwede kong apply-an. At ng sabihin ko iyon kay Engr. Brian, in-encourage niya akong mag-apply doon. Na-excite ako. Thanks din sa mga words of wisdom ng the best ever ninang ko na si Susan Reyes, pati siyempre si Father dear na hindi ko makakalimutan ang  mga pangaral sa akin sa larangan ng pag-aapply. hehehe!

Minsan, kung alin pa ang mga taong hindi mo inaakalang tutulong sa `yo, iyon ang mga taong makakatulong sa `yo. May mga tao kasi na magugulat ka na lang na wala ka ng balita sa kanila dahil may sarili na silang buhay. Iyong mga tao na inaakala mong magiging parte ng buhay mo, pero hindi mo maramdaman ang presensiya niya sa mga panahong ito. Pakiramdam ko nga, kapag may isang taong hindi na nagpaparamdam sa `yo, its either may maganda ng nangyayari sa buhay niya or busy na siya sa buhay niya. I just don't expect this person to be this... self centered. I mean, hey, hindi ko naman gusto na tulungan niya ako, (because I'm a type of person na hangga't kaya pa ay hindi dumedepende sa iba) pero sana nararamdaman ko ang eagerness or kagustuhan niya na kahit papaano...hay, never mind. Mukha namang may maganda ng future ang nagaabang sa kaniya. :) I guess I just have to be happy for... (him/her). Anyway, people change. That is the most permanent things in this world. CHANGE. But me? I won't change. Kung paano niyo ako nakilala ay ganoon pa rin ako. Nandito pa rin naman ako kapag kailangan ako ng mga tao.

The Voice Phil! Astig naman ng palabas na `to.  Makasali nga. Echossss :)

HAPPY FATHER's DAY :D I love you Papa God and PAPA :D

Feeling Twenty-two

So what's up? I'm feeling twenty-two. :)

You know why? Because it's my birthday on June 18! And I'm turning twenty-two. Three days na lang. Haha. It's not that special, you know. I treat my birthday as an ordinary day. But maybe its special when important people in my life would greet me. I'm not expecting any gifts. It's just... that's me-- i do not want any tangible things to be happy. Batiin niyo lang ako at ipaalala na birthday ko, masaya na ako.

So, twenty two. Twenty-two years na akong single. So, ngayong twenty-two na ako, sana may mag-apply. chossss! LOL. I'm an open book. During my very first interview (I won't name the company), the HR supervisor asked me why I haven't been in a relationship when i was in college. I answered: "Ma'am, because I promised to my father and mother that I won't mix any romantic relationship with my studies." My father went abroad just for us (my brother and I) to continue our studies. School is school. Naroon tayo para mag-aral. I'm the type of person that is true to my word. Ofcourse, hindi natin maiiwasang ma-attract tayo sa opposite sex natin, but it is more important not to break my parent's heart. Gaya nga ng nauna kong nasabi sa blog ko, hindi ako isang multitasker. HAHA. I'm not sure if i could balance my studies and relationship. Alam niyo ang ginawa ko? Kapag alam kong mahuhulog ang loob ko sa isang tao ay agad kong pinipigilan ang sarili ko. Lahat ng romantic bones ko ay nilagay ko sa sinusulat kong nobela.

I'm wondering what my life would be after my 22nd birthday. Actually, i'm open to all the opportunities that will come to me, be it career or lovelife. Tinanong ako ng HR supervisor (ulit) na kung may magparamdam daw ba ay ready na ako for a relationship. I went for the safest answer-- between yes or no. Iyong "OR" siguro. haha! I said, "Things happen, happens. Time will only tell." Pang-showbiz lang ang peg? toinks. Anyway, i really wish I could get a job that i would love. I don't care about the salary, basta sapat lang sana. hindi naman iyong talo pa ako sa pagod, pamasahe at sana naman sapat para mabuhay ako. Itinuturing ko ang sarili ko na masuwerte sa ibang anggulo dahil wala na akong mga kapatid na bubuhayin at pagaaralin pa. I'm the youngest in the family. I consider myself as an independent person but still dependent on my family emotionally. There were just many things that happened in my life that i couldn't forget. Sa ngayon, ginagamit ko ang mga iyon para mag-move on ako sa buhay, para may marating ako sa buhay.

For me, getting a professional license doesn't mean the end of my success. I believe it was only one of the threads of a stair to reach my ultimate dream on the landing site. During the time that my mother was still alive (God bless her), i used to tell her that my dream is to have a very spacious and beautiful house-- a villa. And knowing that she was just watching us from above, i won't stop reaching that dream. Ako mismo ang magde-design ng pangarap naming bahay. I will not disappoint her.

I was very emotional these past few days since my father left us for a job in the US. I told him it's okay. Alam kong kailangan din niyang maging masaya at i-divert ang isip niya sa ibang bagay. Babalik din naman siya, but i'm sure i'm going to miss him. My father was like my best guy bestfriend. Siya ang kasama ko mamili ng mga damit, mag-grocery, mamasyal. And I'm very glad that he was there in my graduation and oathtaking ceremony. My father is very supportive, just what i needed the most. He may not be the perfect father in the world, but I'm so lucky to have a father like him. I'm so proud of him. Para sa number one at the best father, Happy father's day, Roman Reyes. You did it! I love my father very much kahit pasaway ako madalas. Nakakatawa lang din na kahit sa board exam ko, gustong-gusto talaga niya akong ihatid pa at samahan. Moral support daw. Ah, what am i without you, father? I love you! My father was really my first love. Siya talaga ang unang lalaking nakapagpapatawa at nakapagpapaiyak sa `kin. :)

Ah, i really hope i could get a job. Alam kong ibibigay naman iyon ni Papa God sa tamang panahon.

Mahaba na. Wala talaga akong magawa, pasensiya na.
Babush!

Thoughts. Thoughts.

Paumanhin mga katoto, ngayon lang ulit ako nakapagpost dito.

Kaya hello! Hmmm. The truth is, i feel like im no longer a writer. Yes, I'm not a writer anymore. Hindi na kasi ako nagsusulat. I just can't write. Bigla akong nawalan ng drive magsulat. Actually, ginawa ko na ang lahat para bumalik ang drive ko sa pagsusulat. Nanood ng movies, nagbasa ng ibang novels... Tumingin sa mga gwapo? Haha! Pero walang effect. Sheeesh. Maybe i'm done with writing.

Hindi ako malungkot naiiwan ang industriyang ito because i gained many friends from writing. Oh well, lahat naman ay may hangganan pero hindi ko tatalikuran ang mga memories ko together with my co-writers and readers. Sana kahit hindi na ako nagsusulat, maalala pa rin nila ako at ituring na kaibigan.

Iyon lang ay may isa akong problema. May pending manuscript pa ako na kailangang isulat under Camp Speed series. Ang totoo, gusto ko na siyang sukuan. Ayokong maging pabigat sa Team CS. Hangga't kasi hindi ko natatapos at hindi pa ito naaapprove, hindi lalabas ang batch 2. I'm so sorry, guys. I just can't make it. I don't want to be a burden sa inyo. I know how much you love this series and i just can't take na ako pa ang magpapa-delay dito just because i can't write. Alam ko kung gaano ka-overwhelming ang feeling ng nagkakaroon ng release na book. Tapos pipigilan ko pa ang kaligayahan niyong iyon? I will never forget my friends that i gained from writing industry-- Karen, Abby, Nikka and Princess. Real name nila ang binanggit ko kasi sa totoong katauhan nila ko sila naging kaibigan, hindi sa kanilang pen name. Hindi ko sila naging kaibigan kasi sikat at magagaling silang writers, they are my friend because i accepted them as who they really are-- flaws and all-- and they accepted me as the real me. I love you friends. Sana kahit hindi na ako kabilang sa mundo niyo ng pagsusulat, isama niyo pa din ako sa mga "gimmick" niyo. Hindi ako sasama bilang si Skye Reyes, kundi si Rhoma na handang makinig sa lahat ng mga chika niyo (kahit sabay-sabay pa kayong magsalita) haha. Multi-tasking ang peg? LOL! I'm so sorry if i have to leave this hit series. Alam kong mas gaganda ang series na ito kahit wala ako. Kaya niyo 'yan! Ajaaaaa! I'm always here to cheer you up! Susuportahan ko kayo lagi.

Maybe i was just overwhelmed to the fact that i passed my licensure exam thats why i cannot write. Hindi kasi ako isang multi-tasker. Parang hindi ako mapakali sa buhay ko, na lagi kong naiisip na kailangang gamitin at ma-apply ko ang lisensya kong iyon, or else baka sa engineering naman mawala ang interes ko. Ang totoo, nabo-bother din ako dahil wala pa akong trabaho. I feel very useless, lalo na at hindi rin ako makapagsulat. Although nakakapagpahinga ako, torture din pala ang walang ginagawa sa bahay. Ang wish ko lang naman ay makapag-hanap ako ng trabahong makakapagpasaya sa akin. Oh, forget about the lovelife. Darating din iyan. Hindi iyan ang nangunguna sa list ko. XD Anyway, s-um-egway lang, ang gusto kong trabaho ay iyong may matututunan ako. Kahit sakto lang ang sahod, papatusin ko na, basta marami akong matututunan. You see, im not really into how much is my salary, but how i will gain my experience to be a better Civil Engineer and how i will surpass myself. Basta nakakaipon lang ng kaunti, ayos na. Alam kong darating ang araw na sa experience at nalalaman ko, tataas din iyan. Hehehehe! Oh, ang haba na. Next time na lang ulit.

 God is good, ALWAYS.

Relax :)

I want to relax after a whole day of solving and reviewing the principles of theory of structures (our topic for the week), so... Yeah, thats why I'm typing this entry of my blog. HAHA Obvious ba? lels.

I really wish i could make it to pass our licensure exam on May. As in, really. I'm very eager to pass on time, not just because I want it for myself, but to those people who believe in me. But i guess, i'll just do what i have to do... My very best. Ibibigay naman ni papa God iyon kung para sa akin talaga ang lisensiyang inaasam ko. At Ppra wala na ring sisihan sa huli. Iyong tipo na, "You didn't study well thats why you failed it on board." I don't want to hear any of that comments kaya talagang pagsusumikapan ko na ito. And besides, i promised to my mother (sumalangit nawa) that i'll do my best to get my license on May.

Yowww! Tama na ang drama! dumako naman tayo sa taong inspirasyon ko ngayon sa pagaaral (bukod sa mother ko, ofcourse) :3 (dumako talaga?) Haha! Alam naman ng lahat iyon, eh. Its no other than Engr. R.R. Haha! Natawa kayo? Ako din, eh. Lels. Ah, basta. Ang galing at ang talino kasi niya (bukod pa sa guwapo haha) kaya idol ko talaga siya. During his time, he topped the CE board exam. ang galing, no? Magaling magturo (kahit super bilis). Fast learner daw kasi kami. XD (DAW) Kahit nauubos ang oras namin sa kaka-derive niya ng formulas ( using integration, differential calculus, etc), at least the concept was there. We were able to understand the concept, kung bakit nagkaron ng ganoong formula kahit nakakaumay na. Haha! :) ayun! At saka, gusto ko talaga siyang makatrabaho, promise! Hahahaha! Kaya dapat, pumasa na ako. Chossss. De, the truth is, i just want something or someone to inspire me to struggle hard. Motivation. Alam ko naman na wala talaga kaming pag-asa romantically (bitter xD haha!), pero sana magkaroon ng chance na makatrabaho ko siya dahil alam kong madami akong matututunan sa kaniya. :D

Salamat na rin sa kaniya, may naisip na akong character sa susunod na nobela ko. I would like to write it under "Camp speed series" where the hero was a car racer- slash- genius-engineer na kino-compute ---literally-- ang velocity ng sasakyan niya to travel a certain distance with the given amount of time. Dynamics ito! XD ganoon siya ka-genius. Haha! He was also silent, mysterious type of guy... At ano pa? Tama na, wala ng thrill. Basta ganoon siya. And the character's name is... Secret! Hahaha


Hosiya. Napahaba na. Abangan niyo ha? Hahaha! Ciao :3