A Letter

*listening to "Ni Yao De Ai" (F4) sikat kasi ngayon ang Meteor Garden. *

Dear Mr. Whoever-You-Are,

I'm sorry but I just couldn't stop myself from noticing you. The first time I saw you, I hated you. Lagi mo kasi akong inaasar sa hindi ko malamang dahilan. Naroon ang mga pabirong suntukan at asaran. I never thought we could be as close as this until that one summer night. After saying your deepest secret to me, I feel like a special person in your life. From then on, I started to hope... that someday I could replace "her" in your life... in your heart. Ang sabi mo, maghahanap ka na lang ng iba. Sana hindi ka na lang maghanap ng iba, hindi mo ba ako nakikita? I'm just here. There. At your back. Nakikita mo na ba ako? Kasi ikaw, ang laki mong hambalang sa harap ko-- sa puso ko. Paano pa ako makakakita ng iba?

I'm sorry for hoping that you would see me as a different person in your life someday. I'm sorry for... Masaya naman ako sa kung anong trato mo sa akin ngayon.

Akala ko, masaya na ako. Hindi pala. I couldn't help but to hope for more. I couldn't help but to look at you. I couldn't help but to smile when you sing to me. Do you know you have a very cold yet warm voice?  I couldn't help but to look at those mysterious eyes who seemed to be happy outside but a true blue loner inside. I couldn't help to fall... Are you ready to catch me?

Please don't make me feel and hope that its possible. No it's not. I know it's impossible. Pero umaasa pa rin ako. Nakakapagod mang umasa, pero pagdating sa `yo, hinding-hindi ako mapapagod. Sa dami dami ng pinagdaanan ko, You're worth all the pain I've experienced and the time I've waited.

I couldn't remember the last time I felt this kind of feeling. Simula noong kaarawan ko, nakaramdam ako ng pagkukulang sa sarili ko. Nakamit ko na raw ang mga gusto kong makamit. But it seems like there was still an empty space here... in my heart. Ikaw pala 'yon...

I love you.

There, i said it. Alam kong huli na, pero at least nalaman mo.

This is a letter i want you to read after a year. Nasa tabi mo man ako sa mga panahong iyan, just don't forget that all of the words i wrote was true. Ano't-ano man ang sitwasyon natin ngayon, umaasa akong magkikita pa rin tayo. Sana...


Love,
Ms. Anonymous


Pangnobela lang. HAHAHA. Wala kasing magawa. Matutulog na nga ako! Last day bukas, then bakasyon naaaaaaaaaa! Ang saya :)