Loving you is like my greatest addiction.
I think of you almost every day, every hour, every minute and every second. A year with you made my life more meaningful. You are my bestfriend, protector, confidante, mentor, partner-in-crime, my special someone… someone who loves the way I dress, I smile, I laugh, I sneez… all of it-- goodness and flaws. I am myself when I'm with you. I can be stubborn, silent or even shout when I'm having a hard time. I mostly love the feeling with your arms, wrapped around me… or your soft kiss in my forehead and nose when I lay in your lap. I enjoyed those quiet moments with you even we're not talking and just sittin' on the couch watching tv… I think those were the most quality time of being with you. I will always love you no matter what-- even in your worst times. I couldn't imagine my life without you. I will continue to give you love whatever I can, wherever I am… because I love you very much.
Linggo, Pebrero 28, 2016
Miyerkules, Pebrero 24, 2016
Lost
I am finding a new job.
Deym it. What do i really want in my life?
I feel like I'm freakin' lost.
But anyway, its not as bad as it seems... I'm taking it slow. But i should note to my self that I'll be broke by April if i'll pass my resignation this upcoming March. Hayy...
Maybe you're asking, 'Why are you leaving? I thought you love your job..."
I thought too... It's just there were a lot of things that pushed me to quit.
First is the financial. I wanted to save. I wanted to travel. But at my current "professional pay" right now is not working anymore. Yes, i am thrifty. But it's not enough anymore. Next month, I'll pay for water bills, internet bills, yaya bills (which is yung paglalaba lang naman ang need ko, tapos bibili pa daw ng washing machine.) Its. Not. Enough. Anymore.
Second, I look on practicality. After ten years, I want to earn as much as i have to for my future family and all. I want to give my future children the life that they deserve. At this point, I'm deciding which career path do I really want. Yes, I have explored enough. And I know what i really want. To be in construction industry. Construction is challenging but I can manage. I am not interested on how much success i would attain in terms on my career, but on how I'll be happy in my life in the future.
Third is my "job". As much as I wanted to be a hydrologist, i don't think it's happy anymore. In my definition of happy kasi, 'yung masaya ka sa ginagawa mo, at masaya ka kasama ng mga katrabaho mo, masaya ka sa boss mo, masaya ka sa kompaniya mo. Well, andaming wala sa current job ko. 'yun lang masaya ako sa ginagawa ko. I have friends in my company, but the others seemed distant. I don't know why. Maybe because they're too smart? LOL. Baka hinahanap ko pa din `yung dating samahan namin ng dati kong trabaho. Masaya sa "Boss"? Well, professionally speaking, i respect our boss, he's a young SVP/Project Manager of the company. But i think he lacks passion about his job and the people he's handling. In my own opinion, when you're a boss, don't take it too personally that you're a "boss". Don't absorb it too much. Its not the world is revolving around a boss. Consideration is one of the important characteristics of a good boss. Hindi naman lahat ng 'unfortunate' events na nangyayari, kasalanan ng tao. Many factors can contribute to the scenario. Also, when you're a boss, have a sense of urgency. Huwag naman sanang maging pa-importante. Sabi nga, there's a line difference between a boss and a leader.
My job description was a hydrologist, not a project coordinator. Okay lang naman kung may proper direction. Eh wala. Magulo. Ako pa naman `yung kapag alam kong kailangan ng atensiyon ang trabaho gusto ko natatapos agad. Pero kung ayaw makipag-cooperate ng isa, ano'ng mangyayari? Tsssss...
I have high respect from him. But it is all gone.
Good thing is that I'm thinking of finding another job again. Salamat at dahil sa 'boss' ko na yon ay nakapagdecide na ako na baka ang paga-abroad ang para sa akin.
Also, i still don't have a contract to my company after it expired last January. I mean, what the...f???
Many reasons pushed me.
And can I push myself too?
I have dreams for my future. For our future. Yes. For our future.
Signing off,
Amohr
Deym it. What do i really want in my life?
I feel like I'm freakin' lost.
But anyway, its not as bad as it seems... I'm taking it slow. But i should note to my self that I'll be broke by April if i'll pass my resignation this upcoming March. Hayy...
Maybe you're asking, 'Why are you leaving? I thought you love your job..."
I thought too... It's just there were a lot of things that pushed me to quit.
First is the financial. I wanted to save. I wanted to travel. But at my current "professional pay" right now is not working anymore. Yes, i am thrifty. But it's not enough anymore. Next month, I'll pay for water bills, internet bills, yaya bills (which is yung paglalaba lang naman ang need ko, tapos bibili pa daw ng washing machine.) Its. Not. Enough. Anymore.
Second, I look on practicality. After ten years, I want to earn as much as i have to for my future family and all. I want to give my future children the life that they deserve. At this point, I'm deciding which career path do I really want. Yes, I have explored enough. And I know what i really want. To be in construction industry. Construction is challenging but I can manage. I am not interested on how much success i would attain in terms on my career, but on how I'll be happy in my life in the future.
Third is my "job". As much as I wanted to be a hydrologist, i don't think it's happy anymore. In my definition of happy kasi, 'yung masaya ka sa ginagawa mo, at masaya ka kasama ng mga katrabaho mo, masaya ka sa boss mo, masaya ka sa kompaniya mo. Well, andaming wala sa current job ko. 'yun lang masaya ako sa ginagawa ko. I have friends in my company, but the others seemed distant. I don't know why. Maybe because they're too smart? LOL. Baka hinahanap ko pa din `yung dating samahan namin ng dati kong trabaho. Masaya sa "Boss"? Well, professionally speaking, i respect our boss, he's a young SVP/Project Manager of the company. But i think he lacks passion about his job and the people he's handling. In my own opinion, when you're a boss, don't take it too personally that you're a "boss". Don't absorb it too much. Its not the world is revolving around a boss. Consideration is one of the important characteristics of a good boss. Hindi naman lahat ng 'unfortunate' events na nangyayari, kasalanan ng tao. Many factors can contribute to the scenario. Also, when you're a boss, have a sense of urgency. Huwag naman sanang maging pa-importante. Sabi nga, there's a line difference between a boss and a leader.
My job description was a hydrologist, not a project coordinator. Okay lang naman kung may proper direction. Eh wala. Magulo. Ako pa naman `yung kapag alam kong kailangan ng atensiyon ang trabaho gusto ko natatapos agad. Pero kung ayaw makipag-cooperate ng isa, ano'ng mangyayari? Tsssss...
I have high respect from him. But it is all gone.
Good thing is that I'm thinking of finding another job again. Salamat at dahil sa 'boss' ko na yon ay nakapagdecide na ako na baka ang paga-abroad ang para sa akin.
Also, i still don't have a contract to my company after it expired last January. I mean, what the...f???
Many reasons pushed me.
And can I push myself too?
I have dreams for my future. For our future. Yes. For our future.
Signing off,
Amohr
Miyerkules, Enero 27, 2016
When you Really Love Someone
This is a draft post written last year (Feb 2015)
What is love?
What is love?
Love. Love is a very deep, unexplainable feeling of being mentally, emotionally and physically attached to someone who suddenly became part of your system without realizing it. No matter how guard your defenses, there would be someone, somewhere, who will pass by the river or infinite oceans and seas for you. Also, it is really true that you'll find love when you least expect it...
Okay, tama na ang drama. Kasi naman! February na naman, ayan tuloy. Kung ano-ano naiisip ko. HAHA...
Anyway, i haven't posted on my blog since forever so mag-uupdate lang.
Paano ko ba sasabihin 'to.. For the first time, i feel excited about Valentine's day. For the first time, hindi na ako nakakaramdam ng bitterness kapag nakakakita ako ng couples (LOL). For the first time, naghihintay ako sa mensahe o tawag ng isang tao.
-me, February 2, 2015
What really is love.
Love. When you really love someone.
When you really love someone, it's not about "Valentines' day" or special love day para ipakita mo na mahal mo ang partner mo. When you really love someone, kagigising mo pa lang sa umaga, excited ka na. Hindi dahil magkikita kayo o may date kayo, but the thought of the overwhelming feeling when you realize another day had passed, but the feelings... lalong tumitindi, lalo mo siyang minamahal kahit kisame ang makita mo at hindi siya sa unang pagmulat ng mga mata mo sa umaga.
When you really love someone, its really hard to remember how you really lived the past years without him/her. Hindi naman dahil nakatuon na ang buong mundo mo sa kaniya, o palagi mo siyang kasama ngayon, kundi dahil sa kaniya mo naramdaman ang kakaibang saya at tunay na pag-ibig na hindi mo nararamdaman noon. Yes, you really lived without him/her for as long as you remember, but you were never really complete until he/she came along.
When you really love someone, you wanted to suceed in life. You wanted to have a good life in the future... with him/her. Nakikita mo na ang taong ito na kasama mo habang buhay. Naniniwala kasi ako, kapag pumasok ka sa relasyon, hindi ka na dapat magpaligoy-ligoy pa. Ang goal dapat sa pakikipagrelasyon ay ang long-term togetherness and happiness.
When you really love someone, you want him/her to be happy. Gusto mong matupad ang mga pangarap niya-- kung iyon ang ikaliligaya niya. Mas inuuna mo ang kaligayahan niya sa kaligayahan mo.
When you really love someone, sometimes you'll be at loss in words, but what you really want to say is how much you love him/her. Wala kasing katumbas na salita ang pagmamahal mo sa isang tao. Ako, may may mga pagkakataon na sinasabi ko ang "i love you" sa kaniya ng paulit-ulit pero pakiramdam ko kulang pa ang salitang iyon sa nararamdaman ko. It's just... no words can explain how much i love him :)
Kaya wala na akong maisulat ito. Ang dami kasi... :D
Wala na namang magawa.
Sorry, another post about love again <3 p="">
-Amohr
-me, February 2, 2015
What really is love.
Love. When you really love someone.
When you really love someone, it's not about "Valentines' day" or special love day para ipakita mo na mahal mo ang partner mo. When you really love someone, kagigising mo pa lang sa umaga, excited ka na. Hindi dahil magkikita kayo o may date kayo, but the thought of the overwhelming feeling when you realize another day had passed, but the feelings... lalong tumitindi, lalo mo siyang minamahal kahit kisame ang makita mo at hindi siya sa unang pagmulat ng mga mata mo sa umaga.
When you really love someone, its really hard to remember how you really lived the past years without him/her. Hindi naman dahil nakatuon na ang buong mundo mo sa kaniya, o palagi mo siyang kasama ngayon, kundi dahil sa kaniya mo naramdaman ang kakaibang saya at tunay na pag-ibig na hindi mo nararamdaman noon. Yes, you really lived without him/her for as long as you remember, but you were never really complete until he/she came along.
When you really love someone, you wanted to suceed in life. You wanted to have a good life in the future... with him/her. Nakikita mo na ang taong ito na kasama mo habang buhay. Naniniwala kasi ako, kapag pumasok ka sa relasyon, hindi ka na dapat magpaligoy-ligoy pa. Ang goal dapat sa pakikipagrelasyon ay ang long-term togetherness and happiness.
When you really love someone, you want him/her to be happy. Gusto mong matupad ang mga pangarap niya-- kung iyon ang ikaliligaya niya. Mas inuuna mo ang kaligayahan niya sa kaligayahan mo.
When you really love someone, sometimes you'll be at loss in words, but what you really want to say is how much you love him/her. Wala kasing katumbas na salita ang pagmamahal mo sa isang tao. Ako, may may mga pagkakataon na sinasabi ko ang "i love you" sa kaniya ng paulit-ulit pero pakiramdam ko kulang pa ang salitang iyon sa nararamdaman ko. It's just... no words can explain how much i love him :)
Kaya wala na akong maisulat ito. Ang dami kasi... :D
Wala na namang magawa.
Sorry, another post about love again <3 p="">
-Amohr
Lunes, Enero 11, 2016
May Forever
Dahil kapapanood ko lang ng pelikula na ang title ay kabaligtaran ng title ng blogpost na ito, magpo-post ako ng thoughts ko about doon :)
At since wala namang nagbabasa ng blog ko, de good. ^_^
Hayyyyyy.. Walang Forever. Ang sabi sa movie, kapag daw tinanong mo ang isang tao at isinagot sayo ay 'May forever', nakahanda pang tanggapin ng taong iyon ang mahal niya. Kung 'Walang forever', handa na itong mag-let go sa taong minamahal niya. No wonder naniniwala ako sa "may forever'. I will hold on to him as long as I can, as long as I love him...
I can imagine kung paano magmahal si Mia kay Ethan at Ethan kay Mia... Kakakilig ang bawat eksena na magkasama sila. Natural na natural ang pag-arte.
I can say na based on true relationships lahat ng iyon. Totoo naman talagang minsan may 'walang forever' drama sa ating mga relasyon, But you should fight if you know its worth it. Sa tuwing mag-aaway kayo, please lang, think of all the good times rather than bad times. Ofcourse, dapat maraming good times kayo.
May na-miss ako sa movie na 'yan. Alam niyo na. HAHA. Ganoon kami magkulitan. Kagaya ni Mia, kinukulit-kulit ko ang boyfriend ko kapag engrossed siya sa nilalaro niyang games sa cellphone o kaya naman, concentrated masyado sa pinapanood sa tv. Kinakagat-kagat ko, niyayakap ko sa likod, para lang maagaw ko ang atensiyon niya, Magagagalit-galitan, tapos ihihilig na niya ako sa lap niya or sa balikat niya. Hayyyyyy. Kakilig magka-bf. LOL
Ugali no'n kapag nangungulit ng lambing, niyayakap ako ng mahigpit, saka aamuy-amuyin yung buhok ko. tapos kiss sa noo. Hayyy.. I love sundays.... I miss him agad...
At since wala namang nagbabasa ng blog ko, de good. ^_^
Hayyyyyy.. Walang Forever. Ang sabi sa movie, kapag daw tinanong mo ang isang tao at isinagot sayo ay 'May forever', nakahanda pang tanggapin ng taong iyon ang mahal niya. Kung 'Walang forever', handa na itong mag-let go sa taong minamahal niya. No wonder naniniwala ako sa "may forever'. I will hold on to him as long as I can, as long as I love him...
I can imagine kung paano magmahal si Mia kay Ethan at Ethan kay Mia... Kakakilig ang bawat eksena na magkasama sila. Natural na natural ang pag-arte.
I can say na based on true relationships lahat ng iyon. Totoo naman talagang minsan may 'walang forever' drama sa ating mga relasyon, But you should fight if you know its worth it. Sa tuwing mag-aaway kayo, please lang, think of all the good times rather than bad times. Ofcourse, dapat maraming good times kayo.
May na-miss ako sa movie na 'yan. Alam niyo na. HAHA. Ganoon kami magkulitan. Kagaya ni Mia, kinukulit-kulit ko ang boyfriend ko kapag engrossed siya sa nilalaro niyang games sa cellphone o kaya naman, concentrated masyado sa pinapanood sa tv. Kinakagat-kagat ko, niyayakap ko sa likod, para lang maagaw ko ang atensiyon niya, Magagagalit-galitan, tapos ihihilig na niya ako sa lap niya or sa balikat niya. Hayyyyyy. Kakilig magka-bf. LOL
Ugali no'n kapag nangungulit ng lambing, niyayakap ako ng mahigpit, saka aamuy-amuyin yung buhok ko. tapos kiss sa noo. Hayyy.. I love sundays.... I miss him agad...
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