Feeling Twenty-two

So what's up? I'm feeling twenty-two. :)

You know why? Because it's my birthday on June 18! And I'm turning twenty-two. Three days na lang. Haha. It's not that special, you know. I treat my birthday as an ordinary day. But maybe its special when important people in my life would greet me. I'm not expecting any gifts. It's just... that's me-- i do not want any tangible things to be happy. Batiin niyo lang ako at ipaalala na birthday ko, masaya na ako.

So, twenty two. Twenty-two years na akong single. So, ngayong twenty-two na ako, sana may mag-apply. chossss! LOL. I'm an open book. During my very first interview (I won't name the company), the HR supervisor asked me why I haven't been in a relationship when i was in college. I answered: "Ma'am, because I promised to my father and mother that I won't mix any romantic relationship with my studies." My father went abroad just for us (my brother and I) to continue our studies. School is school. Naroon tayo para mag-aral. I'm the type of person that is true to my word. Ofcourse, hindi natin maiiwasang ma-attract tayo sa opposite sex natin, but it is more important not to break my parent's heart. Gaya nga ng nauna kong nasabi sa blog ko, hindi ako isang multitasker. HAHA. I'm not sure if i could balance my studies and relationship. Alam niyo ang ginawa ko? Kapag alam kong mahuhulog ang loob ko sa isang tao ay agad kong pinipigilan ang sarili ko. Lahat ng romantic bones ko ay nilagay ko sa sinusulat kong nobela.

I'm wondering what my life would be after my 22nd birthday. Actually, i'm open to all the opportunities that will come to me, be it career or lovelife. Tinanong ako ng HR supervisor (ulit) na kung may magparamdam daw ba ay ready na ako for a relationship. I went for the safest answer-- between yes or no. Iyong "OR" siguro. haha! I said, "Things happen, happens. Time will only tell." Pang-showbiz lang ang peg? toinks. Anyway, i really wish I could get a job that i would love. I don't care about the salary, basta sapat lang sana. hindi naman iyong talo pa ako sa pagod, pamasahe at sana naman sapat para mabuhay ako. Itinuturing ko ang sarili ko na masuwerte sa ibang anggulo dahil wala na akong mga kapatid na bubuhayin at pagaaralin pa. I'm the youngest in the family. I consider myself as an independent person but still dependent on my family emotionally. There were just many things that happened in my life that i couldn't forget. Sa ngayon, ginagamit ko ang mga iyon para mag-move on ako sa buhay, para may marating ako sa buhay.

For me, getting a professional license doesn't mean the end of my success. I believe it was only one of the threads of a stair to reach my ultimate dream on the landing site. During the time that my mother was still alive (God bless her), i used to tell her that my dream is to have a very spacious and beautiful house-- a villa. And knowing that she was just watching us from above, i won't stop reaching that dream. Ako mismo ang magde-design ng pangarap naming bahay. I will not disappoint her.

I was very emotional these past few days since my father left us for a job in the US. I told him it's okay. Alam kong kailangan din niyang maging masaya at i-divert ang isip niya sa ibang bagay. Babalik din naman siya, but i'm sure i'm going to miss him. My father was like my best guy bestfriend. Siya ang kasama ko mamili ng mga damit, mag-grocery, mamasyal. And I'm very glad that he was there in my graduation and oathtaking ceremony. My father is very supportive, just what i needed the most. He may not be the perfect father in the world, but I'm so lucky to have a father like him. I'm so proud of him. Para sa number one at the best father, Happy father's day, Roman Reyes. You did it! I love my father very much kahit pasaway ako madalas. Nakakatawa lang din na kahit sa board exam ko, gustong-gusto talaga niya akong ihatid pa at samahan. Moral support daw. Ah, what am i without you, father? I love you! My father was really my first love. Siya talaga ang unang lalaking nakapagpapatawa at nakapagpapaiyak sa `kin. :)

Ah, i really hope i could get a job. Alam kong ibibigay naman iyon ni Papa God sa tamang panahon.

Mahaba na. Wala talaga akong magawa, pasensiya na.
Babush!