As I was browsing through the letters i have received during the past six years of my life (since 2007) and read my diary (during first sem, 2nd year college, 2008), i suddenly felt nostalgic. Sino bang hindi? Even the letters were heartwarming. I wish i could hug the sender who sent those letters everytime i finish reading the letters one by one.
To my friends, I wish i could apologize to them for being so serious back then. I was a very serious person. Was. Anyway, we're still friends kaya kapag nagkita kami one of these days, sasabunutan ko na lang yong mga yon. hehehe. chossss! I love my bestfriends... Ang dami na naming napagdaanan, ang we're still friends until now. Nagkikita-kita kapag may time even though may kaniya-kaniya ng trabaho.
Oh, well... back to the letters. There's this letter... from... special someone. He was one of our classmate. I remember whenever he would talk to me, lagi niyang kinukuwento kung paano ko daw siya napabilib noong nag-solve ako sa blackboard noong differential calculus namin. LOL He wrote that letter during my 18th birthday (third year na ako non, one year ago simula noong una ko siyang nakilala). I also wish i could hug him right now. Gusto kong sampalin ang sarili ko sa pambabalewala ko sa kaniya. I'm so childish. Takot kasi ako sa relationship noon since studies first naman talaga ako. (sigh) After reading the letter, napangiti ako ng mapait at gustong mapakanta: "Why can't it be the two of us?" LOL. Ang tanga ko kasi natakot ako... ilang beses kong tinanggihan iyong movie date na pinaguusapan namin dati. We even had an agreement na "kami na," noong August 28 yata iyon. Nakasulat sa papel. Anyway, iche-check ko sa aking diary. Malamang ay naroon iyon. So, nawala ko iyong papel kung saan na nakasulat na "kami na". Ang tanga lungs. One of this days, i promise na kakalkalin ko iyon sa mga papel ko sa bahay. (hindi kasi ako nagtatapon ng papel)
God knows how I want to say "yes" when he asked me if we could go out and watch movie. Nagpaalam ako sa mother ko but hindi niya ako pinayagan. I remember regretting na nagpaalam ako. Sana tumakas na lang ako. HEHE So bantay sarado si mother dear nung sabadong iyon... talagang hindi ako nakalabas ng bahay.
Although natuloy ang movie date namin, wala na si mother dear para suportahan ako. Nagkita lang kasi at nakausap ko siya noong burol ni mother. Biro mo, nag-effort pa siyang samahan ako sa pinakamalungkot na bahagi ng buhay ko sa kabila ng... *sigh* We went out last valentines day (nilibre niya ako. hehe) and no'ng pumasa ako ng board, bilang isa sa mga celebration ay ako naman ang nanlibre sa kaniya. LOL
After reading his letter, i was like: "Sayang, ganito pa rin kaya ang feelings mo sa akin ngayon? I have no idea." I really, really wanted to ask him right now, but as usual takot na naman ako. Diosmio, sana po huwag niyang mabasa ito. HAHA. Hmmm..
I want to thank him for being special to me since day one. He may not be there everyday, but i can feel his presence during the most important days of my life, nakakalungkot man, masaya o sakto lang Anyway, siguro ay panapanahon lang. May iba man siyang napupusuan ngayon, okay lang, susuportahan ko siya. ^_^
Ang drama kooooo! chosssss. throwback sunday ang drama xD
Linggo, Setyembre 22, 2013
Miyerkules, Setyembre 18, 2013
Breaktime Notes
I want to write but i can't get the mood to write. I was able to imagine scenes but it seems like its impossible to be put it in a paper now. Huhu kailan kaya... I really do one thing at a time. Hindi ko yata kaya ang sabay. Hays. Breaktime namin. Busy mode. Stress level maximum to 99.9%. Thought i'd prefer this way. No negative thoughts about other things. Just work related stress. Anyway... Pagdating naman ng breaktime, naiicp ko din. Kasi... Kasi... I hope everything's gonna be okay...
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Linggo, Setyembre 15, 2013
Saturday Blast
Okay. I just want to write another post. Pagbigyan na. :P
Oh well, its monday again tomorrow. I'm a bit worried because the suppliers i've called didn't passed their quotations yet. amp. i really hate convincing people but i know that its all part of life. waaaa. talk about weakness. lagot kasi ako kapag hindi ko nakuha ang mga quotations (list of prices) sa monday. haha anyway, i can do this! konting tiyaga lang, Rhoma. Face your fears. You'll get stronger each day...
The consolation is, may bago kami this week. New co-employee. ^_^ I'm not alone. hohohoho
I know how to fax naaaaaaaaaa! hehe if there's one thing that i like about facing fears is learning new things. Hehe I am able to make phone calls but i'm still an amateur on speaking. Mahina raw ang boses ko. Feeling ko naman kasi, malakas. Ayoko lang naman marinig hanggang sa pangatlong row ng cubicle yung boses ko. Mahina raw? xD
ANywayyyyyy. i hate disappointing other people kaya sana, sana naman ay magpasa na sila ng quotation dahil talagang kukulitin ko sila!
Maiba tayo...
I really had a great day yesterday.. I want to thank Nikka and friends for dragging me (literally. LOL) sa PHR cocktail party. Gusto ko talaga kasing tumakas since nahihiya ako dahil wala pa akong pinapasang manuscript since the start of the year. Tapos 100 days before Christmas na, wala pa din. ahuhu Anyway, i really promise na magsusulat na ako. Sa office kasi ako nagsusulat, e. Tuwing umaga at hapon. I'll be writing the chapter by chapter events tonight. Waaaaaaaaaaaa!
I bought books like World War Z by Max Brooks, Lovestruck by Ronald Molmisa and Life is Too Short. And ofcourse, mawawala ba ang pagbili ko ng pocketbooks? haha! Ibinili ko ng books ang boss ko since nagbabasa din pala siya ng pocketbooks. :D
Unexpectedly, i was dragged (again) to sleepover sa bahay ng bestfriend kong si ate Rash. I really love her family. They were very friendly and accommodating. Although, forgive me, i couldn't memorize all their names (kahit ilang beses na akong nagpupunta do'n) T.T
I hate that I suck at memorizing names and faces. :'( i really feel bad when i couldn't recognize the people who knows me. Dapat kilala ko rin sila, di ba? huhu
Engr. Rhoma Reyes, signing off. Have a nice week days ahead! ^_^
Oh well, its monday again tomorrow. I'm a bit worried because the suppliers i've called didn't passed their quotations yet. amp. i really hate convincing people but i know that its all part of life. waaaa. talk about weakness. lagot kasi ako kapag hindi ko nakuha ang mga quotations (list of prices) sa monday. haha anyway, i can do this! konting tiyaga lang, Rhoma. Face your fears. You'll get stronger each day...
The consolation is, may bago kami this week. New co-employee. ^_^ I'm not alone. hohohoho
I know how to fax naaaaaaaaaa! hehe if there's one thing that i like about facing fears is learning new things. Hehe I am able to make phone calls but i'm still an amateur on speaking. Mahina raw ang boses ko. Feeling ko naman kasi, malakas. Ayoko lang naman marinig hanggang sa pangatlong row ng cubicle yung boses ko. Mahina raw? xD
ANywayyyyyy. i hate disappointing other people kaya sana, sana naman ay magpasa na sila ng quotation dahil talagang kukulitin ko sila!
Maiba tayo...
I really had a great day yesterday.. I want to thank Nikka and friends for dragging me (literally. LOL) sa PHR cocktail party. Gusto ko talaga kasing tumakas since nahihiya ako dahil wala pa akong pinapasang manuscript since the start of the year. Tapos 100 days before Christmas na, wala pa din. ahuhu Anyway, i really promise na magsusulat na ako. Sa office kasi ako nagsusulat, e. Tuwing umaga at hapon. I'll be writing the chapter by chapter events tonight. Waaaaaaaaaaaa!
I bought books like World War Z by Max Brooks, Lovestruck by Ronald Molmisa and Life is Too Short. And ofcourse, mawawala ba ang pagbili ko ng pocketbooks? haha! Ibinili ko ng books ang boss ko since nagbabasa din pala siya ng pocketbooks. :D
Unexpectedly, i was dragged (again) to sleepover sa bahay ng bestfriend kong si ate Rash. I really love her family. They were very friendly and accommodating. Although, forgive me, i couldn't memorize all their names (kahit ilang beses na akong nagpupunta do'n) T.T
I hate that I suck at memorizing names and faces. :'( i really feel bad when i couldn't recognize the people who knows me. Dapat kilala ko rin sila, di ba? huhu
Engr. Rhoma Reyes, signing off. Have a nice week days ahead! ^_^
Huwebes, Setyembre 12, 2013
To The Real Me
I've been contemplating about myself... and there are many things that I found out about myself. This is because it seems like I don't know myself anymore. Have I changed or pretending to be someone I'm not just for the people to accept me?
I am the person who secretly fears first time experiences.You won't find any thrill in my bones. I just want a smooth life sailing into a calm sea. If possible, I want to run away from those first time experiences or postponed it. But no matter how I ran away and how many times I postpone it, if it's inevitable and I have no choice but to face it, that is the time I am stressed up to the highest level. I hate first times for I am likely to commit mistakes. I know that it's okay to be wrong because you'll learn from it. But you know, when it comes to me, I think it isn't. You'll gonna find out why in the second paragraph.
I am a slow person. I don't get things at first unlike any other smart people. That is the reason why I don't understand why people 'looked up' to me like "Ikaw, pa. Sisiw lang sa `yo `yan." NO. When something is new to me, it takes time for me to get it. I'm such a slow person. I need a minute to think about the spelling of "Christmas" or even the correct pronunciation of "gravel". It requires TIME and much EFFORT for me to get familiar with a certain topic. What I could brag about is that I'm a hardworking person if it suits me. Meaning, if I want it, I want it. There's no more turning back-- by hook or by crook.
I also hate asking people. I'd rather find the answer myself if its possible. If not, thats the time i'll start asking questions. Its free to ask questions, but i believe finding the answer yourself is much better. You'd remember it easily right? XD
In terms of socializing with people, what i think about myself is i'm in the middle of being an introvert and the opposite of it. What is it called again? Extrovert? LOL. So, as i was saying i couldn't say if i'm "makulit" and talkative but i'm definitely not a people person. I usually hate phone calls. If possible, I'd rather talk personally or just a message in social networking sites or text will do. I don't say outloud whats on my mind, I write it in a piece of paper or type it as a status in my facebook account. I think many times before saying anything for i am afraid others might get hurt unintentionally.
I'm likely very easy to please and convince because i hate rejecting people. I'm a touchy person and always dwell in the past. i Love collecting sentimental items. So, what else? Tama na muna. Baba muna ko ng mrt. LOL
I am the person who secretly fears first time experiences.You won't find any thrill in my bones. I just want a smooth life sailing into a calm sea. If possible, I want to run away from those first time experiences or postponed it. But no matter how I ran away and how many times I postpone it, if it's inevitable and I have no choice but to face it, that is the time I am stressed up to the highest level. I hate first times for I am likely to commit mistakes. I know that it's okay to be wrong because you'll learn from it. But you know, when it comes to me, I think it isn't. You'll gonna find out why in the second paragraph.
I am a slow person. I don't get things at first unlike any other smart people. That is the reason why I don't understand why people 'looked up' to me like "Ikaw, pa. Sisiw lang sa `yo `yan." NO. When something is new to me, it takes time for me to get it. I'm such a slow person. I need a minute to think about the spelling of "Christmas" or even the correct pronunciation of "gravel". It requires TIME and much EFFORT for me to get familiar with a certain topic. What I could brag about is that I'm a hardworking person if it suits me. Meaning, if I want it, I want it. There's no more turning back-- by hook or by crook.
I also hate asking people. I'd rather find the answer myself if its possible. If not, thats the time i'll start asking questions. Its free to ask questions, but i believe finding the answer yourself is much better. You'd remember it easily right? XD
In terms of socializing with people, what i think about myself is i'm in the middle of being an introvert and the opposite of it. What is it called again? Extrovert? LOL. So, as i was saying i couldn't say if i'm "makulit" and talkative but i'm definitely not a people person. I usually hate phone calls. If possible, I'd rather talk personally or just a message in social networking sites or text will do. I don't say outloud whats on my mind, I write it in a piece of paper or type it as a status in my facebook account. I think many times before saying anything for i am afraid others might get hurt unintentionally.
I'm likely very easy to please and convince because i hate rejecting people. I'm a touchy person and always dwell in the past. i Love collecting sentimental items. So, what else? Tama na muna. Baba muna ko ng mrt. LOL
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Martes, Setyembre 3, 2013
Depressing thoughts
Minsan, nakakapagod ng umiyak. Ang sabi nila, kapag umiyak ka daw, magiging maganda ang pagkiramdam mo pagkatapos dahil nailabas mo na ang lahat ng sama ng loob mo. Sa kalagayan ko, hindi, e. Kadalasan kasi akong inuuhog ng ilang araw kapag umiyak ako at hindi 'yon maganda sa pakiramdam. Kapag pinigilan mo naman ang iyak, ang sakit din sa ulo at puso, literal. Masakit. Pati sa atay at balunbalunan. Kaya minsan, sumasakit din ang tiyan ko. Jusko, mamamatay na yata ako. Wag naman, 'di pa ko nagkaka-love life.
Hmmm. I miss my mother. I miss my father. I miss my brother. At ngayon, ang sakit ng ulo at puso ko dahil pinipigilan kong umiyak, nasa MRT ako. Kapag kasi ganitong nakatunganga ako at walang ginagawa kundi mag-antay ng istasyon kung san ako bababa, ang dami-dami kong naiisip na nakakapagpa-depress madalas sa 'kin. Minsan naiisip ko, wala na ba akong maiisip na masaya? 'yong matatawa't mapapangiti naman ako para mapagkamalan akong baliw sa MRT. Masaya kayang mapagkamalang baliw? Ma-try nga.
Hanggang ngayon, iniiwasan kong sumulat ng artikulo na nagsasabi ng lahat ng hinanakit ko at pagsisisi patungkol sa pagkamatay ni mama at ang relasyon namin ng papa ko at kuya ko. Ang hirap ilabas.
Sana nga totoo 'yung sinasabi nila na kapag inilabas mo lahat ng nararamdaman mo e magiging okay na ang pakiramdam mo pagkatapos. Iipunin ko lahat ng tapang ko para ilabas iyon.
Hanggang sa muli.
Hmmm. I miss my mother. I miss my father. I miss my brother. At ngayon, ang sakit ng ulo at puso ko dahil pinipigilan kong umiyak, nasa MRT ako. Kapag kasi ganitong nakatunganga ako at walang ginagawa kundi mag-antay ng istasyon kung san ako bababa, ang dami-dami kong naiisip na nakakapagpa-depress madalas sa 'kin. Minsan naiisip ko, wala na ba akong maiisip na masaya? 'yong matatawa't mapapangiti naman ako para mapagkamalan akong baliw sa MRT. Masaya kayang mapagkamalang baliw? Ma-try nga.
Hanggang ngayon, iniiwasan kong sumulat ng artikulo na nagsasabi ng lahat ng hinanakit ko at pagsisisi patungkol sa pagkamatay ni mama at ang relasyon namin ng papa ko at kuya ko. Ang hirap ilabas.
Sana nga totoo 'yung sinasabi nila na kapag inilabas mo lahat ng nararamdaman mo e magiging okay na ang pakiramdam mo pagkatapos. Iipunin ko lahat ng tapang ko para ilabas iyon.
Hanggang sa muli.
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