Hate. Love. Hate

I always hated answering phone calls who want to hire me as a call center agent. Hindi naman sa minamaliit ko ang pagiging call center agent. I admire them pa nga, e. Its just I suck in speaking in English and you're asking me to work in a call center? like duh? HAHAHAHAHAHA

I remember one of my professor told us that its acceptable if we, engineers, are not much good in speaking English. It's the thought that counts, right? LOL But hey, we're living in the Philippines and therefore I should just accept that English is our second mother language. So I think I should start practicing writing and speaking in English. I don't care if the grammar's wrong. hahaha.

So... I mentioned this because of what I acted during the last interview I had. Mental block. Damn mental block. I just couldn't express my thoughts... It's really shameful that in my age, i suck in speaking in English. I sometimes envy others because they could express their thoughts excellently in English. They sounded sooooo smart. When you can speak in English, they are smart. Right? Right? Right? *sigh*

So... I must start reading, speaking and watching english movies. LOL

And maybe, most importantly, i should keep calm and confident that I am the perfect applicant for that position. Okay! Now, I know what to do. (Yeah, right. Ganyan tayo, e. haha! )

I take back what i said in my last entry yesterday. I have many friends. Why would i feel so alone when I have many friends? What an emo. Haha! So, forgive me. It's me that I should blame. *sigh* Oopps! I am not an emo today. stop. stop. stop.

Signing off :)